Episode 1652 - Cristin Milioti

Episode 1652 • Released June 16, 2025 • Speakers detected

00:00:00Guest:Lock the gates!

00:00:09Marc:All right, let's do this.

00:00:10Marc:How are you?

00:00:11Marc:What the fuckers?

00:00:12Marc:What the fuck buddies?

00:00:13Marc:What the fuck nicks?

00:00:14Marc:What's happening?

00:00:15Marc:I'm Mark Maron.

00:00:15Marc:This is my podcast WTF.

00:00:18Marc:Welcome to it.

00:00:19Marc:If you're new here, have a seat or don't keep running.

00:00:23Marc:Whatever you got to do, whatever you doing, what are you doing?

00:00:25Marc:What are you doing?

00:00:27Marc:What are you doing with your life?

00:00:30Marc:What is it?

00:00:31Marc:Hey, I was in New York for the last few days.

00:00:33Marc:I want to thank everybody who got out there in the streets and raged on behalf of the open heart, the open heart, the tolerant, the welcoming, the embracing, the democratic, the persons that see other people as people and pushed back on this fascist shit show.

00:00:51Marc:What a fucking...

00:00:53Marc:Not just, it's not even the sad parade of tanks, but it's the force at which the cops and the secret police are operating out there in the streets against people that just want to live, that just want to live free lives.

00:01:10Marc:It's a fucking nightmare.

00:01:12Marc:It's an authoritarian clusterfuck.

00:01:15Marc:Secret police out there in their black cars.

00:01:18Marc:God damn it.

00:01:19Marc:Thank you.

00:01:20Marc:Thank you, all decent citizens.

00:01:23Marc:Of a once, you know, at least evolving democracy pushing back on this very authoritarian new America.

00:01:32Marc:Thank you.

00:01:32Marc:I'm thanking you.

00:01:34Marc:I will do my part the best I can.

00:01:36Marc:Fuck fascism.

00:01:37Marc:Right?

00:01:38Marc:Am I right?

00:01:40Marc:Kristen Milioti is here.

00:01:43Marc:I've seen her in a lot of stuff.

00:01:45Marc:The Sopranos, The Wolf of Wall Street, Palm Springs.

00:01:49Marc:She's also been on the shows How I Met Your Mother and Made for Love, which you can't even find anymore.

00:01:55Marc:She won the Critics' Choice Award for Best Actress in a limited series for her performance in The Penguin.

00:02:00Marc:And she's an astounding actress.

00:02:03Marc:She's great.

00:02:04Marc:I'd never fully noticed her before until I'm watching this fucking show, The Penguin, which is not really the kind of show I would watch, but I got locked in because I wanted to see what Colin Farrell was doing.

00:02:13Marc:Then Kristen was like, holy fuck, force of nature, how are you?

00:02:18Marc:So she's on the show today, which I find very exciting.

00:02:21Marc:It was great to meet her.

00:02:22Marc:Also, last week, I talked a bit about an article written by Diana Moskovitz for Defector called There Will Never Be Another WTF with Marc Maron.

00:02:33Marc:Now, look, I thought it was a great article, not just because it was about me, because it was well written and her personal experience with this show was moving.

00:02:42Marc:And Diana was gracious enough to do a recording of that piece for us.

00:02:47Marc:And we played it in full for full Marin subscribers on last Friday's bonus show.

00:02:52Marc:But here's a bit of it right now.

00:02:54Guest:If WTF had its own philosophy of life, it would go more or less like this.

00:02:59Guest:You will start out young and filled with righteous anger at how unfair the world is.

00:03:04Guest:You will try many things, and you will probably fail at them.

00:03:07Guest:But that's okay.

00:03:09Guest:Everyone fails.

00:03:11Guest:And everyone is hiding shame they believe nobody else will understand.

00:03:16Guest:Everyone gets at least a few bad breaks, and some more than a few.

00:03:20Guest:But if you hang in there, at some point, you will cease to fail.

00:03:25Guest:At some point, you will get a lucky break.

00:03:28Guest:At some point, you will look around and realize that while this might not be the life you envisioned, it's still a good life and one you can be proud of.

00:03:38Guest:You will fuck up and you know what you should do after?

00:03:40Guest:Fucking apologize.

00:03:42Guest:And then at some point after that, you will get older and wiser and realize that your apprehension about Sir Ian McKellen was ridiculous.

00:03:51Marc:You can hear that full recording with a full Marin subscription.

00:03:54Marc:Just sign up for that by going to the link in the episode description.

00:03:58Marc:And you can read the full piece at defector.com.

00:04:01Marc:A couple other bits of business.

00:04:04Marc:Look, you know, as we head into the home stretch in the next few months.

00:04:08Marc:If you're not following me on Instagram, go ahead and do that.

00:04:11Marc:I am toying with the idea and leaning towards continuing doing the weekly updates that I mail out.

00:04:18Marc:I believe you can get on that mailing list somewhere at WTFpod.com, but people seem to like those.

00:04:24Marc:People come up to me and go, are you still going to do the updates?

00:04:27Marc:Are you still going to do the dispatches?

00:04:30Marc:Sure.

00:04:30Marc:Why not?

00:04:31Marc:Keeps me writing, keeps me engaged, but...

00:04:34Marc:I was in New York and I had a good trip.

00:04:38Marc:I had a very nice trip.

00:04:40Marc:And I have to be honest with you.

00:04:42Marc:I love doing Jimmy Fallon show.

00:04:45Marc:All right.

00:04:45Marc:Being a panel guest was such an important part of my life for so long.

00:04:50Marc:When I was coming up, I used to do Conan all the time and I, I,

00:04:53Marc:I talked to him when I was in New York.

00:04:55Marc:He happened to be up at Sirius and he was finishing up an interview with Bob Odenkirk.

00:04:59Marc:And he said, come on in, let's knock one out.

00:05:01Marc:So I did.

00:05:01Marc:But I mean, just being a guy on panel like, you know, Richard Lewis or like Jay Leno on Letterman, I just it was it was a very important and very thrilling thing for me.

00:05:12Marc:And I hardly do it anymore.

00:05:14Marc:So look, and I'm not talking about being a guest on a podcast.

00:05:17Marc:There is a specific thing.

00:05:18Marc:I'm talking about being a guest on The Tonight Show.

00:05:21Marc:And look, I know it doesn't mean what it used to.

00:05:24Marc:And the media landscape is a scattered shit show.

00:05:27Marc:But the context is still what it is.

00:05:30Marc:OK, and you go out there.

00:05:33Marc:There's a way to do it.

00:05:34Marc:Some of it's riffing, some of it's, you know, stuff you prepared.

00:05:38Marc:But I'm telling you, man, Jimmy is a good host.

00:05:40Marc:I don't know what you think of him.

00:05:42Marc:I don't care, really.

00:05:43Marc:He's a great audience.

00:05:44Marc:He's excited.

00:05:45Marc:He doesn't he likes when you throw him curveballs.

00:05:47Marc:And I was out there and we were going at it and I was riffing a bit.

00:05:52Marc:And he's just a good audience of one.

00:05:54Marc:And his audience is good.

00:05:55Marc:He's he's fully engaged in the thing.

00:05:58Marc:And it just makes it a fucking blast.

00:06:00Marc:So I enjoyed that.

00:06:01Marc:You can watch that somewhere, the Fallon appearance.

00:06:05Marc:It's out there.

00:06:05Marc:And also, I was there to screen the documentary, Are We Good?

00:06:12Marc:And I do have to admit that it was screening on Saturday.

00:06:14Marc:That was the day of the protests.

00:06:16Marc:And so I was getting ready to go to a theater to watch a movie about me while all you good people who went out into the streets and raged against the machine of fascism

00:06:27Marc:With open hearts and tolerance and decency, I was in a room full of people watching a movie about me.

00:06:35Marc:And I know some of you are like, well, yeah, that adds up, Mark.

00:06:37Marc:But my heart was with you and it's with you now.

00:06:40Marc:And I'll be out at the next one.

00:06:41Marc:I promise there will be a next one.

00:06:43Marc:But the screening of the documentary, it went very well.

00:06:47Marc:It was only the second time I'd seen it in front of an audience.

00:06:50Marc:And it was great.

00:06:53Marc:I mean, it was really great.

00:06:55Marc:It moved me because there's a lot of stuff with Lynn in there.

00:06:57Marc:There's a lot of stuff that really got me squirting out a few tears and feeling the feels again.

00:07:03Marc:And when something goes well, it's funny.

00:07:06Marc:To me, when something goes well, it means it got laughs in the funny places and it got feels in the feely places.

00:07:14Marc:And it just really played well.

00:07:16Marc:And I want to thank everyone who came out for that.

00:07:19Marc:It was a great night.

00:07:21Marc:And then after the screening, Tracy Letts, who is my friend, moderated a conversation with me and Steve Fine Arts, the director.

00:07:31Marc:And that was also pretty fucking amazing.

00:07:34Marc:I mean, talking to Tracy in any situation is amazing for me.

00:07:40Marc:And to be honest with you, I didn't know where he was going to go with the questions, but he had kind of a totally unique point of view about what the film was about.

00:07:50Marc:So the assumption, and it wouldn't be a wrong one, is that it's about processing grief.

00:07:55Marc:It is that, me processing grief, which includes me trying to figure out how to do comedy about it, right?

00:08:03Marc:So Tracy...

00:08:06Marc:When he saw it that night, he thought the film was about work, about the work, about the work of an artist.

00:08:14Marc:Now, I rarely call myself that.

00:08:16Marc:And you guys know that.

00:08:16Marc:And I rarely, rarely see myself that way.

00:08:19Marc:I guess I know I am one, but it seems to be pretentious to call myself one.

00:08:24Marc:I've always felt that, you know, throughout my life.

00:08:27Marc:I'd rather just go with a comic or

00:08:30Marc:But looking at the film as a film about work was helpful to me in reframing my life a little bit because I'm watching my life unfold in bits and pieces over the course of three years in this film.

00:08:45Marc:And my work...

00:08:46Marc:is really how I process everything.

00:08:50Marc:This conversation right now, being part of that, whether it's on the podcast or it's on the stage, my life, certainly up to this point, has been about processing it through my work.

00:09:01Marc:And the work is kind of my life to the point where I don't really live a full life.

00:09:07Marc:I mean, there are other reasons for that, but those are also what I process in the work, the other reasons.

00:09:12Marc:The reasons why I don't live a full life

00:09:15Marc:And I just put it all out there.

00:09:18Marc:And I just kind of had this weird realization.

00:09:22Marc:It's like the reality of my life is sort of like a panicky farce.

00:09:27Marc:And the work that I do...

00:09:31Marc:gives it definition and it attempts to make it relatable as I work it out, to make it real for me and for the audience and just to put it out there.

00:09:41Marc:Does that make sense?

00:09:42Marc:But all this sharing of it is a bit depleting.

00:09:46Marc:I got to be honest with you, because the sharing of it is the work and the work leaves me chronically exposed.

00:09:53Marc:And then I have to incorporate that into how I live and

00:09:57Marc:It starts eating itself and stagnates the life I'm living and I'm running out of time, people.

00:10:03Marc:What am I trying to say?

00:10:04Marc:The only choice I have after 61 years of being alive is to accept what I've called a life and try to live it differently.

00:10:13Marc:If that will bring me some peace, ease up on the panic, the compulsivity, the urgency, the anger.

00:10:19Marc:Find some space and be who I am now and see where that takes me creatively.

00:10:25Marc:I have no idea how to create outside of myself.

00:10:28Marc:I am the center and project of the creation.

00:10:31Marc:And I just feel like...

00:10:33Marc:This space that I'm going to be afforded, you know, if I don't fall into a pit of me, is an opportunity to start putting stuff together that doesn't rely entirely on my immediate reaction to whatever is happening right now in my life.

00:10:49Marc:I do not know if I have the discipline to do other things.

00:10:53Marc:I don't have much patience.

00:10:55Marc:And I don't always think in a fictional realm.

00:10:58Marc:But I think that's really some of where the next piece of me has to go creatively.

00:11:05Marc:Okay, let's bring it back down to earth.

00:11:07Marc:I would say, honestly, on some level, one of the high points, if not the high point of the trip was going to the Museum of Natural History in New York City with Kit.

00:11:17Marc:She'd never been there.

00:11:19Marc:And I hadn't been there since I was a kid.

00:11:21Marc:So when we decided to go, I just I couldn't like I was like, we're gonna see the blue whale.

00:11:27Marc:We're gonna see the big blue whale.

00:11:29Marc:They have this giant life-size model of a blue whale hanging from the ceiling, and it's spectacular.

00:11:38Marc:I remember when I was a kid just waiting to walk into that room.

00:11:40Marc:Where's the room with the whale?

00:11:42Marc:It's a huge blue whale.

00:11:45Marc:And we're going through all the dioramas and the, you know, Asian history, African history, you know, Indian history, you know, a little bit of Armenia in there, all the outfits.

00:11:54Marc:And then we're going through the animals of Africa, all this stuff, sad, you know, taxidermed animals.

00:12:00Marc:But Kit kept saying, look, it was a different time.

00:12:02Marc:They were doing it for research.

00:12:03Marc:It was still a little sad.

00:12:05Marc:Yeah.

00:12:05Marc:And just all the work, all the work that goes into categorizing and researching and studying and putting everything together, the whole world, its peoples and its life forms, the years and years of exploration and excavation.

00:12:21Marc:It's just it's all in this museum.

00:12:23Marc:And then I started to feel like this is all this work is exactly the kind of work that this fascist culture wants to shut down.

00:12:30Marc:That this this revisionary fucking shit show wants to erase all this stuff that was so important to define the world we live in and where we come from and all the different kinds of people and animals is just the stuff that these entitled fucking morons want to to disappear.

00:12:50Marc:Isn't that weird?

00:12:51Marc:I realize that there's an entitlement to stupidity.

00:12:55Marc:the entitlement of stupidity requires everyone just to be as stupid as you are.

00:13:02Marc:Because if, if everyone isn't, then it's a threat to you.

00:13:06Marc:And that is the most fucking malignant type of entitlement that there is.

00:13:09Marc:The entitlement of ignorance is a fucking human disaster because it requires that everybody shut the fuck up and be just as ignorant as the entitled ignorance.

00:13:26Marc:Look, entitlement is annoying on any level.

00:13:29Marc:But this aggressive, entitled ignorance and stupidity.

00:13:33Marc:Holy fuck.

00:13:34Marc:But anyways...

00:13:36Marc:I just had a great time at the museum.

00:13:38Marc:I mean, looking into that, I think they're called dioramas.

00:13:41Marc:The one Noah Bombeck was affected by it as well.

00:13:44Marc:The squid, the giant squid attacking the sperm whale because it's all dark in there and it's just one little exhibit.

00:13:50Marc:But man, it's haunting.

00:13:51Marc:And that vibe just shatters you when you're a kid.

00:13:54Marc:And I got in front of that thing and it was just as fucking terrifying.

00:14:00Marc:And it all came back to me.

00:14:01Marc:It was great.

00:14:03Marc:And then the dinosaur bones.

00:14:05Marc:The dinosaur bones.

00:14:09Marc:Oh, my God.

00:14:09Marc:The big dinosaur bones.

00:14:12Marc:Kit's a dinosaur freak.

00:14:14Marc:And I'm, you know, you can't not just be holy shit.

00:14:18Marc:Holy fucking shit.

00:14:20Marc:The size of these things just wandering around.

00:14:23Marc:Giant fucking lizards and sharks and fish and turtles.

00:14:27Marc:All kinds of stuff.

00:14:28Marc:Pterodactyls.

00:14:30Marc:But there's like three huge halls of dinosaurs.

00:14:32Marc:And we were walking through one.

00:14:34Marc:I'm like, whoa, you know.

00:14:35Marc:That's big.

00:14:36Marc:That's cool.

00:14:37Marc:Holy shit.

00:14:38Marc:It's amazing.

00:14:39Marc:That could fly.

00:14:40Marc:And I found myself, you know, just going to myself like, fuck, where are the, where are the triceratops?

00:14:46Marc:Where are the triceratops?

00:14:48Marc:And we go through one big room and it was, it was, it was awesome, but no triceratops.

00:14:53Marc:Then we get to another room.

00:14:54Marc:There's giant other things, skeletons looking around.

00:14:57Marc:These are fucking scary and cool.

00:14:59Marc:Where's the triceratops?

00:15:01Marc:And then finally in the third room, boom, boom, several triceratops heads and bodies.

00:15:09Marc:I guess like, you know, I guess honestly, I am and always have been a triceratops guy.

00:15:17Marc:I don't know, you know, who you are or what your dinosaur was.

00:15:20Marc:I think I might have gone through a stegosaurus period, but very little head.

00:15:25Marc:And I like those other ones, the lizards with the big fan on the back.

00:15:28Marc:Those are cool.

00:15:28Marc:Never been a T-Rex guy.

00:15:30Marc:but pterodactyl a little bit, a little bit, but really when it comes right down to it,

00:15:36Marc:It's that Triceratops.

00:15:38Marc:And then the one with the armor on it.

00:15:40Marc:The one that, you know, I guess was the great, great, great, great granddaddy of the armadillos.

00:15:45Marc:But I'm a Triceratops guy.

00:15:47Marc:Now you know that about me.

00:15:49Marc:Now you know.

00:15:49Marc:All right, look, you guys.

00:15:52Marc:Kristen Milioti is here.

00:15:56Marc:And she's great.

00:15:58Marc:The full series of The Penguin is streaming on Max.

00:16:01Marc:And go watch her other stuff, too.

00:16:03Marc:I mean, she's really terrific.

00:16:05Marc:And this is me meeting her and talking to her.

00:16:19Guest:You play?

00:16:20Guest:I don't play guitar, sadly.

00:16:22Guest:No?

00:16:22Guest:I wish I did.

00:16:22Guest:I've tried.

00:16:23Guest:I play piano, but I don't play guitar.

00:16:26Guest:Are you good at piano?

00:16:27Guest:I'm decent, but actually probably not anymore because I'm so out of practice.

00:16:31Guest:But there was a time in my life where I was decent.

00:16:33Marc:Does it come right back to you?

00:16:35Guest:No, because I can't read music, so I really have to sit with it for a while, but then sometimes it comes back.

00:16:48Guest:I had to perform at a fundraiser a couple years ago, and I had to play in front of a giant room of people, and I was so terrified.

00:16:56Guest:I practiced for two weeks, and it came back.

00:17:00Guest:Yeah.

00:17:01Guest:And then I actually felt so I was like, oh, I like I could live at a piano.

00:17:05Guest:I just took me a second.

00:17:07Marc:Doesn't it feel good to play?

00:17:09Guest:Yeah.

00:17:10Guest:It's the best feeling on earth.

00:17:11Marc:I know.

00:17:11Guest:It's my number one favorite thing.

00:17:13Marc:Isn't that weird that it wasn't necessarily what you pursued?

00:17:17Guest:I know.

00:17:18Guest:Well, in a way, like a little bit.

00:17:20Guest:I mean, I was in this show for a long time.

00:17:22Guest:This is like when I think I was just about to go do it when we were at Sundance together.

00:17:27Marc:I'm so mad.

00:17:28Marc:I didn't remember that.

00:17:29Guest:You shouldn't be mad.

00:17:30Guest:I was really it was like such a whirlwind.

00:17:32Guest:It was like.

00:17:32Marc:What did you play in Sweet Walk with me?

00:17:34Guest:His sister.

00:17:35Marc:Wow.

00:17:36Guest:Yeah.

00:17:37Guest:Two people you've never seen look less related.

00:17:41Marc:That's not true.

00:17:42Marc:His sister kind of looks like you.

00:17:43Guest:Oh, really?

00:17:44Guest:Well, Mike does.

00:17:45Guest:I feel like I'm so dark and then he's like blue eyes.

00:17:47Marc:No, his sister is like that.

00:17:48Guest:Wow.

00:17:48Marc:I didn't know that.

00:17:49Guest:Gina.

00:17:49Marc:Yeah.

00:17:50Marc:Like I remember her from back in the day.

00:17:52Marc:But yeah, she definitely looks Italian.

00:17:53Guest:Wow.

00:17:54Marc:He does not.

00:17:54Marc:Yeah, he doesn't.

00:17:55Marc:So, okay, you played the sister and we were in Sundance.

00:17:58Guest:Yes.

00:17:58Guest:And then right after that, I did this show for a year.

00:18:03Wow.

00:18:03Marc:Was that the one with the music guy?

00:18:07Marc:Yes.

00:18:08Marc:Was that great?

00:18:08Marc:It was great.

00:18:09Marc:Once?

00:18:10Marc:Once, yeah.

00:18:11Marc:And you had to sing and do stuff?

00:18:12Guest:Every night and play piano.

00:18:14Marc:Wow.

00:18:14Guest:It was great.

00:18:15Marc:Yeah, I mean, I play guitar, and I never sought to do it professionally.

00:18:19Guest:Yeah.

00:18:20Marc:So what I usually say is that means my guitars aren't sort of vessels of broken dreams.

00:18:26Oh, my God.

00:18:26Marc:There's something I like doing.

00:18:29Guest:Yeah.

00:18:30Guest:When I was practicing for that thing, I was just talking about that fundraiser or whatever.

00:18:36Guest:I was reminded when I had to play every day and sing and practice this song, I was like, oh my God, this makes me...

00:18:42Guest:500 times of a better person.

00:18:44Marc:Yeah.

00:18:45Marc:Oh, really?

00:18:45Guest:Like, why aren't I doing this every day?

00:18:47Marc:Because it opens you up, right?

00:18:48Marc:It opens you up.

00:18:49Marc:There's a weird vulnerability to music that, you know, I mean, it took me years to be confident to sing in front of people.

00:18:55Guest:Yeah.

00:18:56Marc:But just to do it, like, I can't do it without getting emotional.

00:18:59Marc:For the first few times that I did it, I'd cry.

00:19:02Guest:Oh, my God.

00:19:03Guest:Because it is the most open you can be with someone.

00:19:05Guest:It's true, right?

00:19:06Guest:It is.

00:19:07Guest:And I feel that way about...

00:19:09Guest:Like, I get really emotional with harmonizing because I think it's, like, the most beautiful thing.

00:19:14Guest:I know.

00:19:15Guest:That can happen with someone else.

00:19:16Guest:I mean, there's many, you know what I mean, like, in music.

00:19:19Guest:And, like, it's just, do you know that song, the Hammond song by the Roaches?

00:19:25Marc:Oh, I don't know.

00:19:26Marc:Maybe.

00:19:27Guest:It's like, no, it's these sisters from New Jersey and it's this incredible song, but it's like a really.

00:19:35Marc:I remember the roaches.

00:19:36Guest:Yeah, it's a really difficult, like five part harmony.

00:19:39Guest:It's really dissonant.

00:19:41Yeah.

00:19:41Guest:A really good friend of mine, she did a concert at Joe's Pub a couple years ago, and five of us got up and sang it.

00:19:47Guest:And I thought I was going to absolutely, like, I was so emotional.

00:19:51Guest:It's crazy.

00:19:52Guest:And it was so beautiful.

00:19:53Guest:And even, like, when we were rehearsing it at my apartment, like, I just was, I just, my joy level was so markedly...

00:20:01Marc:Yeah, it's crazy because it is sort of a way of communicating and connecting without any pretense, really.

00:20:08Marc:And it just happens.

00:20:09Marc:Like, I can't even watch musicals because I just cry for no reason.

00:20:12Guest:Yeah, I love musicals.

00:20:14Guest:And I think that, like, when they're good, there is nothing.

00:20:19Guest:Yeah.

00:20:19Guest:Like, do you know West Side Story pretty decently?

00:20:23Guest:Like, you know, there's these two songs in that, Something's Coming and Maria, like when he first falls in love with Maria.

00:20:28Guest:And he's like singing those huge notes as he walks the streets at night.

00:20:32Guest:And I was like, oh, that's what it's like to fall in love.

00:20:33Guest:Like you get cracked open.

00:20:36Guest:And it's so, and the way like the orchestra swells, I don't know.

00:20:39Guest:I just, yeah, to sing with someone is so intimate.

00:20:42Marc:Yeah, it's crazy.

00:20:44Marc:I feel like I should do it more, but I try to avoid too much joy.

00:20:47Marc:Yeah.

00:20:49Marc:Cool.

00:20:51Marc:Yeah.

00:20:51Marc:I don't know why.

00:20:52Marc:Who needs it?

00:20:53Marc:Well, you kind of need it, but I feel like on stage, you know, the vulnerability and that feeling is sort of, it has a context.

00:21:03Guest:Yeah.

00:21:03Marc:But just moving through life like that, it feels a little too open.

00:21:07Marc:Too open.

00:21:08Marc:Okay, gotcha.

00:21:09Guest:I like it, you know, well, I do concerts from time to time in New York, and I do sometimes, like, I'm so... Like what kind of concerts?

00:21:17Guest:Yeah.

00:21:17Guest:I'll do like covers of stuff.

00:21:20Guest:It'll just be me in a band and I'll be on the piano.

00:21:22Guest:Yeah, I love doing it.

00:21:24Guest:I don't do it enough because they're really hard to put together.

00:21:26Marc:What covers do you do?

00:21:29Guest:Oh, all my girls, like Fiona Apple.

00:21:31Guest:Oh, really?

00:21:32Guest:Fiona Apple, Phoebe Bridgers.

00:21:34Guest:Oh, yeah.

00:21:35Guest:I wouldn't touch Joni.

00:21:36Guest:I would be too afraid.

00:21:37Guest:It's a lot going on with Joni.

00:21:38Guest:It's a lot going on with Joni and I would just be – I actually also probably wouldn't get through it.

00:21:41Marc:Yeah.

00:21:42Guest:I don't think.

00:21:43Guest:I would start to just fall apart.

00:21:44Marc:Really?

00:21:45Marc:I think so.

00:21:46Marc:I had an experience where I was playing a very long Bob Dylan song before I really had that much confidence.

00:21:51Marc:Yeah.

00:21:52Marc:And it's a horrible thing to be on stage without the confidence to get through.

00:21:55Marc:Oh, yeah.

00:21:56Marc:Because part of you wants to shut down.

00:21:58Marc:Yes.

00:21:58Marc:And just kind of like detach from what's happening.

00:22:01Marc:Yeah.

00:22:02Marc:And it was like about two thirds of the way through the song.

00:22:04Marc:And I was just like, there's so much more of this song left.

00:22:07Guest:Yeah.

00:22:07Guest:And then you're I said that out loud.

00:22:08Guest:Oh, my God.

00:22:09Guest:But then I love when I see that, you know.

00:22:12Guest:Yeah.

00:22:12Guest:If I'm like watching someone perform, I really like because I I really it feels I like the intimacy also of like of being there.

00:22:22Guest:It's so of that moment.

00:22:25Guest:And I really like appreciate when someone is like, oh, yeah, I'm going I'm going through it up here.

00:22:30Guest:Yeah.

00:22:31Marc:Yeah, it adds to it.

00:22:33Guest:I did a show at Largo once and I was so excited because I'm a huge Fiona Apple fan and I'm John Ryan.

00:22:42Marc:The Cornette, the new Apple, the new Largo or the old one on Fairfax?

00:22:46Guest:The new one.

00:22:46Marc:Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:22:47Guest:And this was, like, right before the pandemic.

00:22:49Guest:Yeah.

00:22:50Guest:And I, you know, really, like, am aware of its lore.

00:22:54Guest:And because I'm not, I don't live in L.A., like, I love her song Largo.

00:22:57Guest:Sure.

00:22:57Guest:And I, like, know the sound of that piano so well.

00:23:00Guest:And I did one of my concerts there and, like, 30 people showed up.

00:23:06Uh-huh.

00:23:06Yeah.

00:23:06Guest:I was like, oh, my God.

00:23:08Guest:Oh, God.

00:23:08Guest:And then, like, in real time, I just, like, kind of came unraveled, like, as I tried to do this show.

00:23:16Marc:That's good.

00:23:16Marc:So that honors Fiona.

00:23:18Guest:Sure.

00:23:18Guest:Well, like, I mean, yeah.

00:23:20Marc:You could do a whole career unraveling.

00:23:21Guest:just unraveled and like was so and then i made the decision in the moment i was like i'm gonna engage with this yeah i think a couple times at the piano i was like i'm sorry i'm really struggling up here and then but it was like yeah going through that giant space it was so humiliating yeah it was i or you know what i don't use the word humiliating it was it was humbling yeah to be like wow no one showed up and i opened i like ripped open my chest and i thought it was gonna get them to my side and it just alienated them further so

00:23:50Marc:Seriously?

00:23:51Marc:Yes.

00:23:52Marc:Are you sure about that?

00:23:53Marc:It's hard to read 30 in a big room.

00:23:54Guest:It's hard to read 30 in a big room.

00:23:56Marc:Because they're already like, wow, we're the only ones here.

00:23:58Guest:I know.

00:23:59Guest:And everyone was like, it's raining.

00:24:00Guest:That's why.

00:24:01Marc:And I was like, these fuckers.

00:24:03Marc:The excuses for why a show's not, why a room's not filled up.

00:24:06Guest:You know what?

00:24:07Guest:Like a couple friends had come and afterward they were so sweet, but they were like, how you doing?

00:24:12Guest:Do you know what I mean?

00:24:13Yeah.

00:24:13Guest:You're like, oh, no.

00:24:16Marc:Oh, don't ask me that.

00:24:18Marc:Not good job.

00:24:19Guest:You were great.

00:24:20Marc:Are you okay?

00:24:22Guest:Yeah.

00:24:23Guest:It's just that when they drop that voice so that like no one else in the lobby can hear.

00:24:28Guest:Well, not that there was anyone there.

00:24:30Marc:But did people know you to be doing that kind of stuff?

00:24:34Guest:Not out here.

00:24:35Guest:Well, I mean, in New York, I do shows at Joe's Pub, and I've done them for years, and it has like a built-in crowd and audience.

00:24:44Guest:And I think, yeah, I really— Oh, did you go in all excited?

00:24:48Guest:To the Largo?

00:24:49Guest:Yeah.

00:24:49Guest:Of course I did.

00:24:50Guest:Oh, my God.

00:24:50Guest:I was doing soundcheck at the piano, and I was like, wow, this is the best.

00:24:56Guest:And then they came back like right at like five minutes, and they were like, look—

00:25:01Guest:no one's here and I was like oh my god oh my god like it's just and they were like so what we've done is we've sort of moved everybody to the front two rows and I was like oh boy and they were like we can't hold the box office anymore like it's ten minutes was it just you yeah

00:25:17Marc:No band.

00:25:18Guest:I had a guitar player with me.

00:25:19Marc:Oh.

00:25:20Marc:But, I mean, on some level, you can find unity with the other, you know, with the guitar player.

00:25:25Guest:Yes, and he was so sweet.

00:25:26Guest:Yeah.

00:25:26Guest:But I did, I mean, I just, I remember just crumbling at that piano.

00:25:31Guest:Yeah.

00:25:31Guest:Oh, my God.

00:25:31Guest:Yeah, it's actually, it's like one of those things that...

00:25:34Guest:It actually makes my entire body get hot and like so embarrassing.

00:25:40Marc:Isn't it crazy recalling bombs?

00:25:42Marc:Yes.

00:25:43Marc:It's terrible.

00:25:43Marc:It's the fucking.

00:25:44Guest:Yeah.

00:25:44Guest:And I have a filing cabinet full of them.

00:25:47Guest:What do you mean?

00:25:47Guest:Of bombs?

00:25:48Marc:Yeah.

00:25:48Guest:Yeah.

00:25:49Guest:Just like being alive.

00:25:50Marc:Yeah.

00:25:50Marc:Oh, really?

00:25:50Guest:Of the times, the moments in your life.

00:25:53Marc:The embarrassing, the humiliating.

00:25:54Marc:The humiliating.

00:25:54Guest:Yeah.

00:25:55Guest:Just like a shame filing cabinet in your head.

00:25:58Guest:Yeah.

00:25:58Guest:I mean, yeah, sure.

00:25:59Marc:Yeah.

00:26:00Marc:I try to go there at least once a day.

00:26:02Guest:I really try to not to.

00:26:04Guest:But it's those things that come up at like two in the morning where you're like, oh, yeah.

00:26:07Guest:Remember five years ago?

00:26:08Marc:And yeah.

00:26:09Marc:But in comedy.

00:26:11Marc:Oh, my God.

00:26:11Marc:I don't know how you the bombing is.

00:26:14Marc:You know, there's you know, it's a weird thing about that.

00:26:17Guest:Yeah.

00:26:17Marc:Yeah, because at some point, it never feels, it always is terrible.

00:26:22Marc:Yeah.

00:26:23Marc:You know, it happens less as you get older.

00:26:25Marc:Right.

00:26:26Marc:But at some point, you have to factor it into part of the job.

00:26:30Guest:Yes.

00:26:30Guest:But it's still what I've, you know, like I've done a lot of really bad theater.

00:26:35Marc:Yeah.

00:26:36Guest:Like a lot, where you can hear the seats flip up because people are leaving.

00:26:39Marc:Or cough like early with the, ah!

00:26:40Guest:That or like.

00:26:44Guest:And but at the end of the day, like it wasn't my it wasn't like I was up there talking about myself.

00:26:51Guest:Right.

00:26:51Guest:So like with stand up.

00:26:52Guest:Yeah.

00:26:53Guest:I really am like, how do you do it?

00:26:54Guest:It was it was humiliating.

00:26:56Guest:I was on a play once where I was like in a babushka with a little shovel at the end, like reading a letter.

00:27:01Guest:Yeah.

00:27:02Guest:And in like a spotlight.

00:27:03Guest:And I had to like dodge gunfire.

00:27:05Guest:And like it was so embarrassing.

00:27:07Guest:And that's when the seats would start like flapping up.

00:27:10Guest:But I was at least like, well, I mean, maybe I'm doing such a terrible job.

00:27:15Guest:But I'm not here being like, so I'm originally from New Jersey.

00:27:17Guest:Like, do you know what I mean?

00:27:18Marc:I don't know how you do it.

00:27:19Marc:I'm not me.

00:27:20Marc:But there is that moment of realization where like the same thing with that long Bob Dylan song.

00:27:26Marc:Even if you're in character, you're like, oof.

00:27:29Guest:Yeah.

00:27:30Guest:Woof.

00:27:31Guest:Woof.

00:27:31Guest:Yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:27:32Marc:When's this going to be over?

00:27:34Marc:Yeah.

00:27:34Marc:As I've gotten older, what happens now when I'm bombing is that and it doesn't it's not it really doesn't happen.

00:27:42Marc:I can get something out of the moment.

00:27:45Marc:Usually that'll save me.

00:27:46Marc:But there is a point usually happens pretty quickly in a short set where you just know the audience isn't going to go all the way.

00:27:54Guest:Yeah.

00:27:55Marc:So there's going to be this level.

00:27:57Marc:And depending on that level, like I remember I was at the Comedy Cellar and I hadn't been there in a long time.

00:28:02Marc:And I was feeling pretty confident.

00:28:03Marc:But I know that room's difficult in general, really.

00:28:06Marc:And what happens was, you know, you've got the tools to kind of survive it.

00:28:11Marc:But when it's not going well for me, I just feel this like sweat starting to happen, like on the back of my neck.

00:28:18Guest:Yeah.

00:28:19Guest:It feels sometimes like a hot helmet that's coming over the back.

00:28:21Guest:Yeah.

00:28:22Marc:And you're just sort of like, well, that's happening.

00:28:23Marc:Yep.

00:28:24Guest:Yeah.

00:28:25Marc:However I'm hiding it, just being here, my body is reacting.

00:28:29Guest:Yes.

00:28:29Guest:I mean, a lot of times when you've done a play for a long time.

00:28:32Guest:Yeah.

00:28:33Guest:And actually it's kind of the part, it's one of the, I love doing theater.

00:28:36Guest:I really am like kind of jonesing to get back.

00:28:39Guest:It's been a while, right?

00:28:40Guest:It's been a while and I really, I love it so, so much.

00:28:43Guest:But when you do a show like over and over.

00:28:45Guest:Yeah.

00:28:46Guest:You can sometimes – you really learn, like, who's – when it's with you.

00:28:50Guest:Yeah.

00:28:50Guest:There were so many times where especially, like, once was, like, a two-and-a-half-hour play.

00:28:54Marc:But that's a lot of music.

00:28:56Guest:It's a lot of music, but, like, you could feel within the first 20 minutes you'd be like, oof.

00:29:00Marc:Really?

00:29:00Guest:They're not –

00:29:01Guest:They're not on this ride.

00:29:02Guest:And then it's like, well, we're here for the next two hours.

00:29:05Marc:Yeah.

00:29:06Guest:Rarely.

00:29:06Guest:That show was so sort of like universally beloved.

00:29:10Guest:But there were definitely performances.

00:29:11Marc:But, you know, sometimes it's not because they're not on the ride.

00:29:14Marc:That's true, too.

00:29:15Marc:They're just they're just they're in it.

00:29:17Marc:Yeah.

00:29:18Marc:But they're not giving you what you need.

00:29:19Marc:Yeah.

00:29:20Marc:And that's a fundamental misunderstanding on their part.

00:29:24Yeah.

00:29:24Guest:Yeah.

00:29:25Guest:Didn't you know?

00:29:25Marc:We're here to meet the performer's needs.

00:29:28Marc:Exactly.

00:29:28Marc:What do you think this is?

00:29:30Marc:Yeah.

00:29:30Marc:These people have been trying their whole life to be loved.

00:29:33Marc:Yeah.

00:29:34Marc:So get it together.

00:29:35Guest:Yeah.

00:29:36Marc:Do your part as a fucking audience.

00:29:38Guest:Yeah.

00:29:38Guest:But I also kind of like, I feel like that's the fun challenge of those like long runs.

00:29:44Guest:I mean, that was like, I did that for a year, which I don't know if I could do that again.

00:29:48Guest:You can do that.

00:29:48Marc:That was over 500 performances, and it was like— But to be locked into the same thing, I mean, even as a comic, I mean, you've got the same bits, but you're always—it's fluid.

00:29:57Marc:Yeah, it was.

00:29:57Marc:You know, you could just add—I can add stuff in.

00:29:59Marc:I can change it up.

00:30:01Marc:I can make decisions.

00:30:02Marc:I'm not going to add anything into it.

00:30:03Marc:Just start riffing.

00:30:04Marc:Just start riffing.

00:30:06Guest:Vamping.

00:30:06Guest:Yeah.

00:30:07Guest:No, but, like, I do remember that, like, toward the end, because you do it so many times, like, there were times where I experienced this, like, incredible feeling of, like, I knew the words so well and I knew the music so well that I could, like, let go.

00:30:22Guest:And it felt like— Oh, yeah.

00:30:24Guest:Actually, I was like, whoa, this is so—like, it's just kind of, like, moving through me.

00:30:29Guest:Yeah, yeah.

00:30:29Guest:Hyper-present.

00:30:30Guest:And that was cool, yeah.

00:30:30Marc:Yeah.

00:30:31Marc:Oh, that's good.

00:30:31Guest:And then other days I'd be like, I don't know what my next line is.

00:30:34Guest:And I hate this.

00:30:35Guest:This is not very professional.

00:30:36Guest:But like the times that I've been on stage and someone has forgotten a line.

00:30:39Marc:Yeah.

00:30:40Guest:There's nothing funnier.

00:30:41Marc:Yeah.

00:30:41Marc:And it's got to be the best.

00:30:42Guest:So you're just like.

00:30:43Marc:They're looking at you terrified.

00:30:44Guest:Yeah.

00:30:44Guest:You're just like, oh, like the veil has been lifted.

00:30:47Guest:And now I just want to giggle.

00:30:49Guest:Yeah.

00:30:49Guest:This is crazy.

00:30:50Marc:Do you laugh?

00:30:51Guest:Yes.

00:30:52Marc:Yeah.

00:30:52Marc:Have you laughed in, like, really heavy plays?

00:30:57Guest:Mm-hmm.

00:30:57Guest:Yeah.

00:30:57Guest:I laughed once.

00:30:58Guest:One time, actually, not to just keep talking about once, I just, like, I did so many performances at that time.

00:31:03Guest:It's a whole life.

00:31:04Guest:It's a whole life.

00:31:05Marc:It's a year and a half or something.

00:31:06Guest:But there was, like, a scene where one of the guys on the show, he, like, rips these, like, warm-up pants off.

00:31:11Guest:Yeah, yeah.

00:31:11Guest:And he's in these, like, little shorts.

00:31:13Guest:And it was, like, St.

00:31:13Guest:Patrick's Day or something.

00:31:14Guest:And he wore this, like, weird green underwear.

00:31:17Guest:And just because you're so not used to something like that happening.

00:31:20Guest:Yeah.

00:31:21Guest:And he didn't.

00:31:22Guest:And I laughed so hard we had to stop the show.

00:31:25Marc:Really?

00:31:25Guest:Yeah.

00:31:26Guest:And then it was, like, that thing where, like, everyone was like, ha, ha, ha, that's funny.

00:31:29Guest:And then it became, like.

00:31:30Marc:Ridiculous.

00:31:31Marc:Stop it.

00:31:32Marc:Beardrop.

00:31:32Marc:Couldn't stop it.

00:31:33Marc:Couldn't stop it.

00:31:34Marc:But it didn't bring the audience back around.

00:31:36Guest:Yeah, I mean, but I think they were already in it, I think.

00:31:40Guest:I don't remember.

00:31:40Guest:But yeah, I mean, I'm like always this close.

00:31:44Marc:Yeah, it's weird.

00:31:45Marc:You know, I think that that connects you.

00:31:48Marc:The audience likes the vulnerability of the immediacy of it.

00:31:53Marc:But then like they, you know, you kind of fuck their head up.

00:31:56Marc:They're like, why can't we have more of that?

00:31:57Marc:Like there's so much crowd work going on with comedy now, like people talking to the audience.

00:32:01Marc:It's like you're ruining it.

00:32:02Marc:We have to have some separation.

00:32:04Marc:They can't be part of everything.

00:32:06Guest:I know.

00:32:07Guest:Because then you're just beholden to their silly... That would make me very nervous.

00:32:11Marc:What?

00:32:12Marc:That crowd work?

00:32:13Marc:Yeah.

00:32:13Marc:Well, I can do it, but then it's like once you do that, then they're like, it's about us.

00:32:18Marc:Are you sure?

00:32:18Marc:And you're like, no, it's me.

00:32:20Guest:That's right.

00:32:20Guest:Exactly.

00:32:21Marc:I prepared stuff.

00:32:22Guest:Yeah.

00:32:23Marc:So, like, when did you start?

00:32:26Marc:Wait, Cherry Hill, New Jersey, that's where you're from?

00:32:28Marc:Yeah.

00:32:29Marc:But that's, like, Philly.

00:32:31Marc:Philly.

00:32:32Marc:Almost.

00:32:32Marc:Yeah.

00:32:33Marc:Yeah, because my people are from northern Jersey somewhere.

00:32:36Marc:Oh, really?

00:32:37Marc:Where?

00:32:37Marc:Like, near, I guess, what's the big city around there?

00:32:40Marc:Wayne?

00:32:41Guest:Wayne.

00:32:42Marc:Yeah.

00:32:42Marc:Pompton Lakes, Bergen County.

00:32:44Marc:Oh, Bergen County, yeah.

00:32:45Marc:Yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:32:46Marc:But that's a whole different New Jersey.

00:32:48Marc:It seems like there's different jerseys.

00:32:49Marc:There's a lot of... There's Philly Jersey.

00:32:51Guest:There's Philly Jersey.

00:32:52Marc:Beach Jersey.

00:32:52Marc:Yep.

00:32:53Marc:And then up there in the rural Jersey.

00:32:55Guest:Yes.

00:32:56Guest:I grew up in Philly, Jersey, but then my whole family is from Atlantic City.

00:33:01Guest:So I grew up like Beach, Jersey, and then Philly, Jersey.

00:33:04Marc:Yeah, a lot of my people were from Asbury.

00:33:06Guest:Yeah, of Asbury.

00:33:08Marc:Yeah.

00:33:08Marc:Yeah, so you were going to Atlantic City when you were a kid?

00:33:12Guest:I was going to like Ocean City, Margate, which is also like so different now.

00:33:16Guest:Everything got like raised and made into mansions and I haven't been back.

00:33:20Marc:Isn't that weird?

00:33:20Marc:It's so weird.

00:33:21Marc:Because I remember Asbury Park and Atlantic City just being garbage.

00:33:25Marc:It was just a beat up kind of like boardwalk.

00:33:30Guest:Yeah, it was really beat up.

00:33:31Marc:Yeah, and there was no real activity there.

00:33:34Marc:It was just these old ghosts of buildings.

00:33:36Guest:Which I loved.

00:33:37Guest:Ocean City had this little amusement park that was so dangerous.

00:33:41Guest:Hasbury had a little one.

00:33:42Guest:And we would go all the time.

00:33:44Marc:Yeah.

00:33:45Guest:And it was so like, you know, it was truly like it being inside of a Springsteen song or something.

00:33:49Guest:And I loved it.

00:33:50Marc:Yeah.

00:33:51Marc:Those rides.

00:33:52Marc:It's like I went out to Coney Island to ride the Cyclone.

00:33:55Guest:Yeah.

00:33:56Marc:And it's just like it's the worst roller coaster in the world.

00:33:58Guest:I went there last summer with someone.

00:34:00Guest:You did?

00:34:00Guest:Yeah.

00:34:01Guest:A friend of mine.

00:34:01Guest:We were like, let's like have a night at Coney Island.

00:34:04Guest:And the Cyclone was closed because there had just been a thunderstorm.

00:34:07Guest:And we got on this ride called The Tickler.

00:34:10Guest:Yeah.

00:34:10Guest:Which is like already upsetting.

00:34:11Marc:Yeah.

00:34:12Guest:And I got so scared, I screamed myself hoarse.

00:34:15Marc:Really?

00:34:16Guest:Because I just was like... But you're afraid the ride's going to break.

00:34:18Guest:I thought the ride was going to break.

00:34:20Guest:And the tickler really tries to almost slam you into a pole.

00:34:23Guest:And I just kept screaming, I don't trust this.

00:34:25Guest:And I really, truly terrified myself out of a voice.

00:34:28Marc:Isn't that wild?

00:34:28Marc:Yeah.

00:34:29Marc:And I was like, I don't know if I can.

00:34:30Marc:It's not controlled terror like some of these newer rides where you're like, yeah, that's pretty well built.

00:34:34Guest:But those, I, you know, I like a ride in theory because I'm like, wow, this is the closest I'll get to flying.

00:34:40Marc:Yeah.

00:34:41Guest:But like, I don't, can it all, what if a screw?

00:34:43Marc:Yeah.

00:34:44Marc:Well, I get that.

00:34:44Guest:I don't want to go like that.

00:34:45Marc:I get, no.

00:34:47No.

00:34:47Marc:It's such a rarefied way to go.

00:34:49Marc:It's such a rarefied way to go.

00:34:51Marc:You just win the stupid lottery.

00:34:53Marc:How the fuck can you die on a ride?

00:34:55Guest:I know.

00:34:56Marc:I get that on planes now because I just assume that all the controllers have been fired.

00:35:00Guest:Yeah, I know.

00:35:01Guest:I'm a terrible flyer anyway, but yes, as of late, it's been very difficult to be up there.

00:35:05Marc:Just picture one guy in the tower going, I can't do this myself.

00:35:08Marc:Exactly.

00:35:09Marc:Yeah.

00:35:10Marc:The ride things, I just went on a ride recently because I decided that...

00:35:15Marc:Like I had a wife once who was into roller coasters.

00:35:20Marc:So I'd go on them.

00:35:22Marc:And somehow I'd forgotten that I never liked them.

00:35:24Marc:And I went on a ride.

00:35:26Marc:We were doing some bad guys press and Rockwell wanted to go on the...

00:35:31Marc:One of the rides at Universal.

00:35:33Guest:Yeah.

00:35:33Marc:It was the little roller coaster one.

00:35:34Marc:It was, what the hell was it?

00:35:36Marc:I've never been there.

00:35:37Marc:It was a very short ride, and it was, now it's the mummy ride.

00:35:41Guest:Okay.

00:35:41Marc:It's the mummy thing.

00:35:42Guest:Like the movie?

00:35:42Marc:Yeah, and it happens in the dark.

00:35:44Marc:Niche.

00:35:44Marc:Okay.

00:35:45Marc:Well, yeah, well, that's what Universal was.

00:35:47Marc:And it's, but like, I got so nauseous.

00:35:50Marc:Yeah.

00:35:50Marc:I'm like, what the fuck is the thrill of this?

00:35:52Marc:I was fucked up for the whole day.

00:35:53Guest:Yeah, I know.

00:35:54Guest:It was queasy.

00:35:54Guest:Yeah.

00:35:54Guest:I, a million years ago when I was 18, I worked at Hershey Park for a summer.

00:35:59Marc:You did?

00:36:00Guest:And I was a singer slash dancer.

00:36:02Guest:Dancer in real light quotes.

00:36:04Guest:Yeah.

00:36:05Guest:And one of the things that they, like, it was a horrible summer.

00:36:11Guest:But one of the things they offered as like a perk was that you would have one day where you could come and ride all the rides for free.

00:36:16Guest:Yeah.

00:36:16Guest:I think I came on my one day off and was like, got to get these rides in.

00:36:19Guest:Yeah, yeah.

00:36:19Guest:And got so sick.

00:36:20Guest:Yeah, yeah.

00:36:21Guest:And I was 18.

00:36:22Guest:I should have been able to, but my neck got hurt.

00:36:26Guest:I was so nauseous.

00:36:27Guest:I was exhausted.

00:36:28Guest:I got slammed around all day in the heat while chocolate is getting pumped through the vents.

00:36:34Guest:It's disgusting.

00:36:35Marc:Oh, my God.

00:36:36Marc:So that was your first show business gig?

00:36:38Guest:Yeah, that was my first one of my first show business gigs.

00:36:41Guest:It was right after after my freshman year of college.

00:36:45Guest:We all like a bunch of us like went and it was like a big open audition for like cruise ships and amusement parks.

00:36:51Guest:And all my friends got got it.

00:36:52Guest:And I didn't on the ships on the ships and in Hershey Park.

00:36:55Guest:So you didn't get that.

00:36:56Guest:I didn't get it.

00:36:57Guest:And I went home devastated.

00:36:58Guest:I was like, wow.

00:36:59Marc:Yeah.

00:37:00Guest:And then someone broke their ankle and they called at Hershey.

00:37:04Marc:What's better than the cruise ships?

00:37:05Marc:Can you be on a boat?

00:37:07Marc:You can.

00:37:07Marc:No, but like, don't you get nauseous?

00:37:09Marc:Oh, me?

00:37:10Guest:Yeah.

00:37:10Marc:Well, I don't.

00:37:11Marc:I would never get on a cruise.

00:37:12Guest:Cruises freak me out because like it's all.

00:37:15Guest:You're out in the water.

00:37:15Guest:It's just a giant bathroom.

00:37:17Marc:Yeah.

00:37:17Guest:Isn't it?

00:37:18Guest:Sure.

00:37:18Guest:Don't we know that now?

00:37:19Marc:Well, yeah, it's not.

00:37:20Marc:It doesn't feel safe.

00:37:21Marc:Doesn't feel safe.

00:37:22Marc:On the bacterial level.

00:37:24Guest:And also kind of since Titanic, I'm like, we shouldn't be doing this.

00:37:27Marc:Have you seen some of those boats where you're like, how does that even, like, they're literally hotels.

00:37:32Marc:Yeah.

00:37:33Marc:It makes me way too anxious.

00:37:34Marc:I went on one for my grandmother's birthday at some point in my life.

00:37:38Marc:And I was a grown up.

00:37:39Marc:And it was just, you just walk around and eat.

00:37:41Marc:Yeah, I don't, yeah.

00:37:43Marc:But I get nauseous on boats, too.

00:37:44Marc:Yeah, I do, too.

00:37:45Marc:Immediately.

00:37:45Marc:Yeah.

00:37:46Marc:Well, you're lucky.

00:37:47Guest:Yeah.

00:37:47Marc:But you felt like you needed to go get nauseous on rides at least once.

00:37:49Marc:It was better than every day on a boat.

00:37:51Guest:Oh, my God.

00:37:51Guest:I wouldn't have done it.

00:37:52Marc:Yeah.

00:37:53Yeah.

00:37:53Marc:Did you come from like a big Italian clan?

00:37:56Guest:No.

00:37:57Marc:Oh.

00:37:57Guest:No.

00:37:57Guest:We're just like Americans in New Jersey.

00:38:00Guest:Oh.

00:38:01Guest:Yeah.

00:38:01Guest:No feast of the whatever fishing.

00:38:03Guest:Like, no.

00:38:03Guest:It would just be... No.

00:38:06Guest:I mean, you know, my dad's side is... My grandfather was Italian.

00:38:10Marc:Yeah.

00:38:11Marc:And then... Oh, so you're not all Italian?

00:38:13Guest:No.

00:38:14Marc:What's the other part?

00:38:15Guest:Belgian.

00:38:16Marc:Oh, that's interesting.

00:38:16Guest:Yeah.

00:38:17Guest:And then my mom is like Irish and Czech.

00:38:20Guest:But I... Yeah.

00:38:21Guest:So it's like a real...

00:38:22Marc:Yeah, but you got enough Italian in you to do the Italian thing.

00:38:25Marc:Well, sure.

00:38:28Marc:It's pretty strong.

00:38:28Marc:You can be cast as Italian.

00:38:30Guest:Yeah, I can.

00:38:31Guest:Although, you know, I've never been to Greece before.

00:38:36Guest:And recently I've like had a couple of interactions with people who are like, I know a lot of miliotis in Greece.

00:38:41Guest:You're Greek.

00:38:42Guest:Yeah.

00:38:42Marc:Really?

00:38:43Guest:Yeah.

00:38:43Marc:You never did the 23andMe thing?

00:38:45Guest:I don't know why.

00:38:47Guest:It's like when people are like, are you going to get your dog's DNA tested?

00:38:50Guest:I'm like, no, he's a dog.

00:38:52Marc:Well, yeah, but you're not a dog.

00:38:53Guest:I know.

00:38:54Guest:You're a person.

00:38:54Marc:You're curious.

00:38:55Marc:A dog's not walking around going like, who am I?

00:38:58Marc:What is my...

00:38:59Guest:Yeah.

00:39:00Guest:I don't know.

00:39:00Guest:There's something about it where I'm like, I'm good.

00:39:02Marc:Leave it a mystery?

00:39:03Guest:Yeah.

00:39:04Marc:Yeah.

00:39:04Marc:I was hoping for some Viking, but I just got Jew.

00:39:07Marc:Zero.

00:39:09Marc:Zero Viking.

00:39:10Marc:Zero.

00:39:10Marc:Just 99.9% Ashkenazi.

00:39:11Guest:I don't know.

00:39:12Guest:Maybe I'll do it.

00:39:13Marc:Yeah.

00:39:14Marc:Well, I think they went bankrupt.

00:39:16Marc:Try to get yourself on that Finding Your Root show.

00:39:18Guest:I would love to be on that show.

00:39:19Guest:That show's so emotional.

00:39:20Marc:Yeah, I did it.

00:39:21Marc:You did?

00:39:22Guest:Yeah, it's crazy.

00:39:23Marc:Did you cry?

00:39:24Marc:No, I didn't cry that much because, like, most of my stuff, there was some lunatic great-great-grandfather who made the news a lot where he lived down in the Carolinas.

00:39:37Marc:I was able to track my dad's bipolar to that guy.

00:39:43Marc:Wow.

00:39:43Marc:And then on the other side, they just went he said he went back as many generations as they could or or more than they'd ever been able to into like Russia.

00:39:53Guest:Yeah.

00:39:53Marc:To track my patriarch.

00:39:55Marc:I think it was my dad's father's line.

00:39:59Marc:Yeah.

00:39:59Marc:And yeah.

00:39:59Marc:I mean, how emotional is it?

00:40:01Marc:Like he was a tailor.

00:40:02Guest:Yes.

00:40:03Guest:I know.

00:40:04Guest:I think about this, you know.

00:40:06Guest:there are I have so many moments in my life that I'm just overwhelmed by that I like I'm able to do this yeah or just like those crazy career moments where you're working with someone who you have grown up admiring or something and you're just like whoa this life is like what what a what a miracle yeah and um yeah sometimes I'll be like and my grandparents oh that yeah yeah escaped war and like yeah we're in the depression and like it's how were we it's incredible

00:40:36Marc:Well, that's a nice way to frame it.

00:40:38Marc:That, like, somehow or another, like, how did I get here from there?

00:40:42Guest:Yeah.

00:40:42Marc:Yeah.

00:40:44Marc:I mean, the struggles were different.

00:40:46Marc:Totally.

00:40:46Guest:But, like, I have an apartment that I got with being, playing make-believe.

00:40:51Marc:Yeah.

00:40:51Guest:It's incredible.

00:40:52Marc:So that's gratitude there.

00:40:53Guest:Yeah.

00:40:54Guest:And, like, you know, it's just, yeah.

00:40:56Marc:Well, that's good.

00:40:58Marc:Like, it's good that if you, do you live in that or is that something you have to kind of make yourself do?

00:41:03Yeah.

00:41:03Guest:um uh i wouldn't say i'd say that it uh yeah sometimes i do have to really be like like hey but that's not because of i think that's just because of being alive and it's like especially right now you look around the world and you're like it's fucking worst it's the worst and and why does someone get this life and why does someone get this life sure there's no rhyme or reason and it's devastating it's

00:41:27Marc:Yeah, totally.

00:41:28Marc:But then you have to lean into the sort of like, but I'm telling stories.

00:41:34Guest:But I'm telling stories for a giant conglomerate.

00:41:36Marc:Yeah.

00:41:37Marc:But it makes people happy in the moment.

00:41:39Guest:Yes.

00:41:39Guest:And I do think that like, you know, I don't know.

00:41:42Guest:It's like – I always think about that.

00:41:45Guest:I get incredible joy from like when I go see concerts and when I go see certain plays and certainly when I watch movies as well.

00:41:54Guest:And so I do think that there is like – and especially like growing up, like songs and movies were like what helped me figure out how I was like feeling about certain things.

00:42:05Marc:Yeah.

00:42:05Marc:Well, yeah, I've never leaned on it more in my life than right now in this sort of political and cultural moment.

00:42:13Marc:The need for, especially if it's great, you know, to be engaged with a story that, you know, reveals humanity.

00:42:23Marc:And compassion.

00:42:24Marc:Yeah, and all that stuff.

00:42:25Marc:It does feed you a certain human thing that you're not going to get from the world right now.

00:42:32Guest:Well, I think it reminds me of, and this is actually like what you're talking about with music and singing with someone, like not to put too, I don't know.

00:42:39Guest:Like when I hear a certain song or if I see something and it reminds me that like humanity is good.

00:42:45Guest:Like just in the same things when like my interactions with my loved ones, I'm like, oh, right.

00:42:49Guest:Human beings can be like really, really good.

00:42:52Guest:Because I think when I look at what's happening, I'm like, what are we?

00:42:55Guest:We're just always evil.

00:42:56Guest:Well, they can go bad.

00:42:58Guest:Yeah, I know.

00:42:58Guest:But why?

00:42:59Guest:But so many go bad.

00:43:00Marc:Yeah, because their brains have been fucked by their phones and this never-ending pummeling of propaganda that's exploiting their misery and empowering them to be horrible.

00:43:14Guest:Yeah.

00:43:15Marc:Yeah, there you go.

00:43:16Marc:We figured it out.

00:43:17Marc:We figured it out finally.

00:43:18Marc:But that's the thing about theater, because I always wrestle with that, this idea that theater is vital.

00:43:23Marc:Right.

00:43:24Marc:To the community and all that kind of stuff because it's so insulated now.

00:43:29Marc:Right.

00:43:29Marc:I mean, you've got these Broadway shows that become kind of a ride at the amusement park.

00:43:34Marc:Oh, for sure.

00:43:35Marc:But challenging plays and plays that really explore humanity and character, I mean, it's not like they get necessarily huge audiences all over.

00:43:44Marc:But there is that thing that we're talking about, that the vulnerability and the connection with a group of people that is essentially human and happening in front of them.

00:43:52Marc:Yeah.

00:43:53Marc:It really is powerful.

00:43:54Marc:It is.

00:43:55Marc:And I think it does change people to a degree or at least re-engage them with what's important in life.

00:44:00Guest:And it plucks you out of your isolation.

00:44:02Guest:Yeah.

00:44:02Guest:It just like asks you to be together.

00:44:04Guest:That's right.

00:44:05Guest:And engage with something.

00:44:06Guest:Yeah.

00:44:06Guest:And it's like, it's incredible.

00:44:08Marc:Yeah, and I think it's pretty noble work.

00:44:11Marc:When I was touring this last stand-up show before I shot the special, because I'm pretty lefty and my audience knows who I am, and there was this real feeling that it was community service.

00:44:21Marc:It was important to get all these isolated, frightened people and feeling powerless into one room so that they could at least feel seen and part of something.

00:44:31Guest:Yeah.

00:44:32Guest:And have some like relief, too, and like having that and then being able to laugh.

00:44:36Marc:Yeah, it's such a drag that all we can do now is like give people relief.

00:44:40Guest:Yeah, I know.

00:44:41Marc:Do you know what I mean?

00:44:42Marc:It used to be proactive, like some part of like an evolved progression towards something better.

00:44:48Marc:Now it's just sort of like, oh, this still exists.

00:44:51Guest:Thank God.

00:44:51Guest:Yeah, I know.

00:44:52Marc:God damn it.

00:44:53Marc:What are we going to do?

00:44:53Marc:Let's fix it.

00:44:54Guest:Can we fix it here?

00:44:55Guest:I think we can fix it by the end of this.

00:44:56Guest:So you have siblings?

00:44:57Guest:I have a younger brother.

00:44:58Marc:Just two of you?

00:44:59Marc:Just two of us.

00:45:00Marc:What business was your family in?

00:45:03Guest:My mom is a banker and my dad does like IT stuff like programming for like a law firm who makes sure that like all their programs are talking to each other and up and running.

00:45:16Guest:And my brother's a musician.

00:45:17Guest:He's a brilliant bassist.

00:45:19Guest:Oh, bass.

00:45:20Guest:Bass.

00:45:20Marc:Those guys are important.

00:45:21Guest:Yeah.

00:45:22Guest:They are.

00:45:23Guest:They really hold it down.

00:45:23Marc:Yeah, the quiet bass guy.

00:45:24Marc:The rhythm section is very important.

00:45:26Guest:Yeah.

00:45:27Marc:Why the lunatics jump around.

00:45:28Guest:But he's not quiet.

00:45:29Guest:He's like one of the funniest people I've ever met.

00:45:31Marc:But on bass, though, like you've got to kind of like.

00:45:33Marc:Yeah.

00:45:35Marc:You've got you're the backbone of the whole thing.

00:45:37Guest:Oh, right.

00:45:37Guest:You're not like shredding.

00:45:38Marc:Yeah.

00:45:39Marc:There's some shredders.

00:45:40Guest:He does.

00:45:40Guest:I mean, he does.

00:45:41Guest:He can do it.

00:45:41Marc:He does like a like a. Is he in a combo or a band?

00:45:44Guest:He's in a band.

00:45:45Marc:Yeah.

00:45:45Guest:Yeah.

00:45:46Marc:Are they doing all right?

00:45:47Guest:They're doing really good.

00:45:47Marc:Yeah.

00:45:48Guest:Yeah.

00:45:48Guest:In New York?

00:45:48Guest:Crickets and cicadas.

00:45:49Guest:Crickets and cicadas.

00:45:50Guest:Sort of around like Philly and New Jersey.

00:45:52Guest:Yeah.

00:45:53Marc:Yeah.

00:45:53Marc:And it's all original stuff?

00:45:55Guest:Some of it's covers and then some of it's original.

00:45:58Marc:They got records out?

00:45:59Guest:Yeah.

00:46:00Marc:Yeah.

00:46:00Guest:I think.

00:46:01Guest:Yeah.

00:46:01Marc:Okay.

00:46:02Marc:Yeah.

00:46:03Marc:And so when do you start doing this ridiculous job that we do?

00:46:07Guest:um when did i start i started like uh i mean i knew i wanted to be like when was my first like professional no i mean like when did you get the bug oh i got the bug early yeah just because i loved i love movies and i love like singing and i love so i was like one of those kids um and i watched a lot of movies with my dad uh that like weren't for kids yeah um

00:46:31Marc:Good parenting.

00:46:32Guest:Good parenting.

00:46:33Guest:Yeah.

00:46:33Guest:Like a lot of Coen Brothers films.

00:46:35Guest:That's okay.

00:46:36Guest:Yeah.

00:46:36Guest:Tarantino.

00:46:37Marc:Well, that's a little.

00:46:38Guest:Yeah.

00:46:38Guest:But like, you know, when I'm like eight.

00:46:40Guest:Yeah.

00:46:40Guest:Oh, yeah.

00:46:40Guest:And like we kind of watched what he wanted to watch.

00:46:42Guest:And we also watched, he like showed me The Third Man and Key Largo.

00:46:46Guest:And like I had like this like really vast.

00:46:50Marc:The Third Man.

00:46:50Guest:The Third Man is so good.

00:46:52Marc:When they're up on that Ferris wheel.

00:46:53Guest:Oh, my God.

00:46:54Guest:I just saw it again recently.

00:46:56Guest:It was like they played it at the Metrograph in New York.

00:46:59Guest:Have you been there?

00:47:00Marc:I haven't.

00:47:00Marc:Well, I think I have.

00:47:01Guest:On the Lower East Side.

00:47:02Guest:Yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:47:03Guest:And I had never seen it on the big screen, obviously.

00:47:05Guest:And I was so... It's so good.

00:47:07Guest:It's a perfect film.

00:47:08Guest:Yeah.

00:47:08Guest:And so, like, I just... So we would watch all these movies together.

00:47:12Guest:And then I was also, you know, like, I loved Kids in the Hall.

00:47:15Guest:And I loved... Like, I just kind of watched what my dad watched.

00:47:18Guest:And...

00:47:20Guest:I knew that like I wanted to be in that like inside of it like a song or like I just was like, what do I have to do to be near that?

00:47:28Guest:Well, yeah.

00:47:29Guest:And but like when I was nine, I went for Halloween as a stressed out director.

00:47:35Guest:Like I thought I was going to direct.

00:47:36Marc:That's pretty that's pretty high minded for a nine year old.

00:47:39Guest:None of the other kids knew.

00:47:40Guest:So they were like, you look like our dads.

00:47:43Marc:What were the props for the stressed-out director?

00:47:45Guest:I was, like, in jeans and a baseball hat.

00:47:48Guest:And I wore glasses as a kid.

00:47:49Guest:And I was, like, glasses.

00:47:50Guest:And then a flannel shirt tied around my waist and a script.

00:47:53Guest:And I just, like, walked around being like, oh, God, what are we going to do?

00:47:56Marc:That's pretty creative.

00:47:58Marc:Yeah.

00:47:59Marc:Were you directing the other animals in costumes and people?

00:48:02Guest:Not that day.

00:48:02Guest:But I did also try to direct other kids in, like, sketches and stuff.

00:48:07Guest:Oh, yeah?

00:48:08Guest:Yeah.

00:48:09Guest:But I didn't know...

00:48:11Guest:that I necessarily, like, wanted to be an actor, I think, till... You know, like, I did it in high school, and I think around then I started to really be like, oh, I want to see if I can do this.

00:48:21Marc:Yeah.

00:48:21Guest:Because I love this so much.

00:48:23Marc:Yeah, and so you started... Now I can't... I keep thinking about the third man and that moment where, you know, where Harry's...

00:48:31Marc:obviously toast.

00:48:32Marc:He's caught.

00:48:33Guest:Yeah.

00:48:33Marc:And all of a sudden he becomes this frightened, feral human just running through those sewers or whatever.

00:48:39Guest:And there's like all that incredible like shadow work.

00:48:41Marc:And it's just like it was so great to see that character scramble.

00:48:45Guest:Yeah.

00:48:46Guest:It's incredible.

00:48:46Marc:Yeah, I mean, we need more of that now.

00:48:48Marc:I know.

00:48:48Marc:We want to send all those people scrambling.

00:48:50Marc:Yeah.

00:48:51Marc:It's a pretty relevant movie, too.

00:48:53Guest:Oh, yeah.

00:48:53Guest:The personalities.

00:48:55Guest:I also, I remember watching it and thinking, this is such a weirder movie than I remember.

00:49:00Guest:Yeah.

00:49:00Guest:Like, it's actually, because, you know, I mean, I love all those old movies, but they've been, like, they've been, homage has been paid to them so many times, and you sort of, like, get swept up in them.

00:49:10Guest:And I was like, ooh, this is such a spiky, strange, wacky movie.

00:49:14Marc:Totally.

00:49:14Marc:And like the story itself and all that weird zither music.

00:49:19Guest:Yeah.

00:49:19Guest:It's the best.

00:49:20Guest:It's so beautiful.

00:49:22Marc:Yeah.

00:49:22Guest:So, yeah.

00:49:23Guest:So, I, you know, I'm just, I'm very grateful that he was showing me stuff like that.

00:49:27Marc:Yeah.

00:49:28Marc:And so in high school, you're doing what?

00:49:29Marc:Musicals?

00:49:30Marc:Yeah, you're doing musicals.

00:49:31Marc:Yeah.

00:49:31Guest:Yeah.

00:49:32Marc:And you're belting it out.

00:49:33Guest:Belting it out.

00:49:34Marc:Yeah.

00:49:34Marc:But were you running around doing auditions for commercials and stuff?

00:49:37Marc:Did you?

00:49:37Guest:No, I was in a commercial when I was little.

00:49:40Guest:That was like a local access commercial.

00:49:42Marc:That's pretty exciting day, wasn't it?

00:49:44Guest:I hated it.

00:49:45Guest:Hated it.

00:49:46Guest:I was like seven maybe.

00:49:48Guest:It was for toilet seat protectors.

00:49:51Guest:Wow.

00:49:52Guest:High end.

00:49:53Guest:High end.

00:49:54Guest:Thank you.

00:49:54Guest:And I just remember – I remember little bits and pieces of it.

00:49:57Guest:And then I think at the end of the day I said to my parents, I was like, this was torture.

00:50:01Guest:I don't ever want to do this again.

00:50:03Marc:Well, that – I mean it's weird because that's a lot of what makes –

00:50:07Marc:You know, film and TV acting horrible.

00:50:09Guest:Yeah.

00:50:10Marc:It's just that you don't have any control.

00:50:12Guest:Yeah.

00:50:12Marc:And it was you waiting around.

00:50:13Guest:Oh, my God.

00:50:14Guest:I think I said like one line and it was truly like, you know, I mean, like a yeah, like a local access, like really like low budget.

00:50:23Guest:And then I played sports for a long time and really loved that.

00:50:27Guest:And then.

00:50:29Guest:I got into theater again.

00:50:31Guest:It's sort of in middle school because I was really bullied and made fun of a lot.

00:50:34Guest:And the kids that were really.

00:50:36Marc:What was what were they bullying?

00:50:38Guest:I had like a shaved head and I looked I just got endlessly roughed up.

00:50:46Marc:So, but you were a rebel?

00:50:50Guest:No, I was like a little goof.

00:50:51Marc:But you shaved your head for a reason.

00:50:53Guest:I shaved my head because there was a girl at camp who shaved her head, but she was like older and like could rock it.

00:50:58Guest:And then I was like, I'm going to do this.

00:50:59Guest:But I had like a mustache and a buzz cut and was a goof and like showed up to the first day of middle school wearing a T-shirt that said, don't mess with Texas that I'd like seen at a Goodwill or something.

00:51:12Guest:And I just was like, what's up, everybody?

00:51:14Guest:And they just immediately fell.

00:51:16Guest:Threw me into a locker.

00:51:17Marc:For the whole time?

00:51:18Guest:The whole time.

00:51:19Guest:It was awful.

00:51:19Guest:I didn't speak to anyone.

00:51:20Guest:I was this really animated kid, and I just didn't shut down completely.

00:51:26Guest:Oh, my God.

00:51:26Marc:They crushed your spirit.

00:51:28Guest:Crushed it.

00:51:28Guest:And the kids that were – and it was like a long time of that, many, many months of just sort of – Didn't you find any other weirdos?

00:51:35Guest:theater kids eventually like truly like one of them approached me in the hall and was like hey do you want to like come to this like activity and I like no one had spoken to me I remember it felt like it was like yeah it was like water in a desert like I'd gotten so used to the only person who like for that period of time who would engage with me was like one of these teachers who was so kind to me because she just saw like she'd asked me to stay after class and she'd be like what do you what do you like

00:52:03Guest:to do and like it was so clear that i was just like but you knew you wanted to be different i mean there was a certain intentionality to it because i'd done it because i'd gone to this summer camp that was like a bunch of misfits and i'd felt that was so alive this is where the girl shaved her head yeah was this like what was that the angle of the camp was in an art camp or something it was like arts but you could still play soccer it was kind of just really hippie right and so i like came i was just like it was the best summer of my life

00:52:29Marc:So you knew that there were weirdos out there that could be their own people.

00:52:33Guest:Yeah.

00:52:33Guest:And I felt like popular for the first time.

00:52:35Guest:I was only ever popular at camp.

00:52:37Guest:And then I think I came home with that confidence.

00:52:40Marc:Back to Jerry Hill.

00:52:41Guest:And then just got... Because I was like, yeah, I just had these like... And by the way, because when you're little, like time is... I think I'd been at camp for three weeks.

00:52:48Guest:And I was like...

00:52:49Guest:I'm a new person.

00:52:50Guest:Like, I am, I am the king.

00:52:52Guest:I am like, and then I shaved my head.

00:52:54Guest:I came, I showed up with like a magnetic nose ring.

00:52:56Guest:Like, I was so, I was rocking my mustache.

00:52:59Guest:Yeah, you put yourself out there.

00:53:01Guest:Yeah, just brutalized.

00:53:02Marc:What's the mustache thing?

00:53:03Guest:Just genetic, I guess.

00:53:06Marc:Just being like... But you really made it stand out.

00:53:09Guest:I think I didn't know about it.

00:53:10Guest:Right.

00:53:10Guest:And I remember that year a boy looking at it.

00:53:14Marc:Uh-huh.

00:53:14Guest:And I suddenly was like, what's he looking at?

00:53:16Guest:And then I walked into the bathroom and I was like, oh, my God.

00:53:19Guest:Like, I didn't know I had that.

00:53:21Guest:And I didn't know... I remember that with...

00:53:23Guest:I mean, God, that age is so terrible.

00:53:25Guest:I was wearing.

00:53:25Marc:What, like 13 or 14?

00:53:27Guest:Yeah, I was like 12 or 13.

00:53:28Guest:And I remember, like, I wore shorts.

00:53:30Guest:And I saw someone, like, staring at my legs.

00:53:33Guest:And I was like, what's going on?

00:53:34Guest:What's going on with my leg?

00:53:34Guest:And then I, like, saw that I had, like, hair on my legs.

00:53:38Guest:And I was like, oh, I don't know.

00:53:40Guest:Like, it was like, oh, it's awful.

00:53:42Marc:And then, yeah, then sort of the beatdown begins.

00:53:44Guest:The beatdown begins.

00:53:45Marc:From the inside, too.

00:53:46Guest:From the inside, too.

00:53:47Guest:That's the worst.

00:53:48Guest:So really, like, these kids who were so sweet to me.

00:53:52Marc:Yeah.

00:53:53Guest:Kind of.

00:53:53Guest:And then I started doing these plays in middle school.

00:53:55Guest:And I was like, wait, I love this.

00:53:57Guest:This is like camp.

00:53:58Guest:It gets you out.

00:53:59Guest:Yeah, it gets me out.

00:53:59Guest:And also I was somewhere where I could, like, you know, I mean, not to, I could escape.

00:54:04Marc:Yeah.

00:54:04Guest:I could, like, be someone else.

00:54:06Guest:Yeah.

00:54:06Guest:And I think that at that time was a relief.

00:54:08Marc:And also just the community of theater kids.

00:54:10Marc:Oh, my God.

00:54:11Marc:That, you know, that they – because they all are bound by this, you know, we're kind of weirdos and unique.

00:54:17Guest:And we have big feelings.

00:54:19Guest:Yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:54:19Guest:We're just trying different stuff.

00:54:21Guest:Thank God for middle school theater.

00:54:23Guest:They saved me.

00:54:24Guest:You know, because I was really like – it was terrible.

00:54:27Guest:I feel so much –

00:54:29Guest:For anyone who goes through that, but, like, you know, to be that lonely and to be, like, that bullied, it was horrible.

00:54:37Guest:And, like, your parents don't know how to help you.

00:54:39Marc:Yeah, it's so heartbreaking because there's just going to be more and more of it now as they ditch these programs and make, you know.

00:54:44Guest:I know.

00:54:44Guest:Yeah, I've thought so much about that.

00:54:46Marc:LGBTQ kids feel that it's going to be like a fucking nightmare.

00:54:49Guest:And that program saved my life.

00:54:50Marc:Yeah.

00:54:51Marc:Because people are unique.

00:54:53Marc:Yeah.

00:54:54Marc:And individual spirit is special.

00:54:58Marc:Yeah.

00:54:58Marc:And now they're just kind of crushing everybody to kind of abide by.

00:55:02Marc:Yeah.

00:55:03Marc:Which was always there.

00:55:04Marc:Totally.

00:55:05Marc:But at least you had a refuge.

00:55:06Guest:You had a refuge.

00:55:07Guest:Yeah.

00:55:07Guest:And like, you know, how incredible that, yeah, I went to this like giant public middle school in New Jersey, but that they like set aside money for us to put on like some dinky little play.

00:55:17Guest:That's good.

00:55:18Guest:And then they let me write a play too.

00:55:20Guest:And then I got to like act in that and cast people.

00:55:23Guest:And I really was like, whoa, like I never want to leave.

00:55:26Guest:This is the safest place on earth.

00:55:28Marc:What was the play about?

00:55:29Yeah.

00:55:29Guest:The play was about an actress in her 80s who has come back to the theater where she made her debut.

00:55:39Guest:And she's like, all her ghosts are haunting her.

00:55:42Guest:And she's like, I've lived a terrible life.

00:55:43Guest:I didn't.

00:55:45Guest:Yeah.

00:55:45Guest:And then we took it to a. That's pretty heavy for an eighth grader.

00:55:48Guest:Eighth grader.

00:55:49Guest:And then we took it to this like little theater competition.

00:55:52Guest:And I remember the judges afterward were like.

00:55:54Guest:Honey, have you ever seen Sunset Boulevard?

00:55:56Guest:And I was like, I don't know what that is.

00:55:58Guest:Because I hadn't.

00:55:58Guest:I was like, no.

00:55:59Guest:And they were like, it feels like you copied it.

00:56:01Guest:And then I like went out in the parking lot and.

00:56:03Guest:Cried?

00:56:04Guest:No, I bought, I mean, it's even worse than crying.

00:56:06Guest:I bought a pack of candy cigarettes.

00:56:08Marc:And just ate them?

00:56:09Marc:Just ate them.

00:56:10Guest:But, like, pretended to smoke them.

00:56:12Marc:Oh, okay.

00:56:12Guest:All right.

00:56:13Guest:But then, like, would chew on them.

00:56:13Guest:Yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:56:14Guest:Because I was just like, oh, fuck, they don't get it.

00:56:16Marc:Yeah.

00:56:16Guest:Yeah.

00:56:17Marc:They're just coming down on you from all sides.

00:56:20Marc:Here are the grownups.

00:56:21Marc:Gosh.

00:56:22Marc:Who are supposed to just appreciate your creativity.

00:56:25Marc:And they call you a rifted off.

00:56:27Marc:A hack.

00:56:28Marc:A hack.

00:56:29Marc:Did you watch Sunset Boulevard?

00:56:30Guest:I've still never seen the movie, but I just saw the show.

00:56:32Marc:How was that?

00:56:33Marc:Loved it.

00:56:34Marc:You never saw the movie?

00:56:35Marc:I've still never seen it.

00:56:35Marc:Oh, you've got to see that movie.

00:56:36Guest:Yeah, I know.

00:56:37Marc:That's right up there with the third man.

00:56:38Guest:Yeah, I know.

00:56:39Guest:It somehow didn't make it into our... It's a crazy movie.

00:56:43Guest:Yeah.

00:56:44Marc:Yeah.

00:56:45Guest:Okay, I'm going to watch it.

00:56:46Marc:You've got to watch it.

00:56:47Marc:Yeah, it opens up with a voiceover of a guy dead in a pool.

00:56:50Marc:Ugh.

00:56:51Guest:I'm in.

00:56:52Marc:Yeah.

00:56:53Marc:So after that, in high school, you felt confident?

00:56:56Guest:Yeah.

00:56:56Guest:And then high school, I was like really, you know, I was in bands a lot.

00:57:00Guest:Singing?

00:57:00Guest:Yeah.

00:57:01Guest:I was the singer for the jazz band.

00:57:02Guest:And we did battle the bands.

00:57:03Guest:Like I was like in, and so I found like musician kids too.

00:57:07Guest:And then theater kids.

00:57:09Guest:And I did a lot of plays.

00:57:10Guest:And yeah, it just felt.

00:57:12Marc:God, so you really had chops by the time you got out of high school.

00:57:15Guest:I don't know.

00:57:15Guest:Well, no, but you did a lot of stuff.

00:57:17Marc:I did a lot of stuff.

00:57:18Marc:I mean, at least you had confidence in self-expression or in that world.

00:57:24Guest:Yeah, and I knew that I— You don't seem that troubled.

00:57:30Guest:Cool.

00:57:32Marc:You're really good at this, huh?

00:57:33Marc:Because, like, you know, I watched a lot of your stuff and I'm like, no, she's going to be a lunatic.

00:57:43Guest:You really thought that?

00:57:45Marc:Not a lunatic.

00:57:46Marc:I have to be careful about how I throw around the word crazy.

00:57:49Marc:Yeah.

00:57:50Marc:But I did sense after seeing a couple of roles that there's probably a lot going on in there.

00:57:56Guest:Yeah.

00:57:57Yeah.

00:57:57Guest:I mean, there's a lot going on inside any of us.

00:58:02Marc:Yeah, sure.

00:58:03Marc:Yeah, you can rationalize it however you want.

00:58:06Marc:Yeah.

00:58:06Marc:Yeah, you're not special at all.

00:58:09Guest:Yeah.

00:58:10Marc:Okay.

00:58:10Guest:Yeah.

00:58:11Marc:But so what do you do after high school?

00:58:14Marc:You're just like, I'm doing it.

00:58:16Guest:I went to NYU and was miserable.

00:58:20Marc:Why were you miserable there?

00:58:21Guest:I think I've wanted to live in New York my whole life.

00:58:24Guest:I've been obsessed with New York.

00:58:26Guest:All growing up, I was like, I just have to get to New York.

00:58:28Guest:Yeah.

00:58:29Guest:And I think I just wasn't ready to be in college.

00:58:33Guest:Yeah.

00:58:33Guest:Like, and especially in Manhattan.

00:58:35Marc:Away from home, you mean?

00:58:36Guest:I think I just wasn't.

00:58:37Marc:Too much?

00:58:38Guest:It was, like, too much.

00:58:39Guest:And then I was in this program.

00:58:40Guest:I was taking out student loans, so I knew I was going into debt.

00:58:42Guest:Yeah.

00:58:43Guest:And I was only getting to act, like, five minutes a week.

00:58:46Guest:And so, and I was, like, living in New York City.

00:58:49Guest:And, like, you know, I think I just kind of, I was really unhappy there.

00:58:52Guest:And so then I dropped out.

00:58:54Guest:Yeah.

00:58:54Guest:Like, halfway through my sophomore year, right after the Hershey Park summer.

00:58:58Marc:Oh.

00:58:59Marc:Boy, two hits.

00:59:01Marc:It just...

00:59:02Marc:The hits keep coming.

00:59:04Marc:Show biz is not going well.

00:59:05Guest:But I do remember like we did, you know, whenever we would do like scene classes in college, I do remember being like, oh, I just want to be doing this like all the time.

00:59:15Marc:Yeah.

00:59:16Marc:And also you're all full of the juice.

00:59:18Marc:You know, you're all worked up.

00:59:20Marc:Yeah.

00:59:21Marc:And you're probably delivering some pretty intense scene study business.

00:59:25I don't.

00:59:25Guest:I don't remember I know that we did Chekhov and I'd never read Chekhov before and I loved it I was like oh my god a bunch of Russian people sitting around being like what's the point yeah sign me up yeah I loved it yeah yeah and I loved to you know like I love singing so much but I don't I also think that like when I was there

00:59:44Guest:And it was like a different time, too.

00:59:46Guest:And I think they were trying to help.

00:59:48Guest:They were trying to help you be employed.

00:59:50Guest:Right.

00:59:51Guest:And so when I would sing, they would be like, you know, your voice isn't for musicals.

00:59:57Guest:It's like low and it's, you know, it's like singer song.

00:59:59Marc:What the fuck is with these grown-ups?

01:00:01Guest:I know.

01:00:01Guest:But this, you know, I look back on this and like, I don't know if I would drop out of school now.

01:00:06Guest:It took being like a ballsy 18-year-old or 19-year-old to be like, what?

01:00:11What?

01:00:12Marc:Yeah, fuck you guys.

01:00:12Guest:Fuck you.

01:00:13Marc:And then, so what do you do?

01:00:14Marc:You're just in New York?

01:00:15Guest:I was just in New York.

01:00:16Guest:And right before I dropped out, an agent came to this, like, I was in this, like, black box theater production of a show based on the sorrows of young Werther.

01:00:27Guest:Do you know that?

01:00:28Guest:No.

01:00:29Guest:Goethe.

01:00:30Guest:It sounds all sound good.

01:00:31Guest:Yeah, Goethe.

01:00:32Guest:It feels lame to be like, it's pronounced Goethe.

01:00:35Marc:The guy who wrote Faust.

01:00:37Guest:Yeah.

01:00:37Guest:But I played, like, this drug-addled pop star.

01:00:41Guest:And who has like a complete nervous breakdown and is like, but like it was a Disney kid.

01:00:46Guest:And so this woman saw me in it and she was like, I'm going to send you on two auditions and see how you do.

01:00:51Guest:Really?

01:00:52Guest:I got one of them.

01:00:53Marc:Oh, that's so the black box here.

01:00:55Marc:So, you know what it's like to perform for 10 people?

01:00:57Guest:Yeah.

01:00:57Guest:Oh, yeah.

01:00:58Marc:Yeah.

01:00:58Yeah.

01:00:59Marc:So the Largo thing was just, you thought you were beyond that.

01:01:01Guest:Except we sold out that black box theater in college.

01:01:05Marc:And it was still 30 people.

01:01:07Marc:But it was sold out.

01:01:08Marc:But it was sold out.

01:01:08Marc:Yeah.

01:01:09Marc:So she saw something.

01:01:11Guest:Yeah, she was like, we're going to just see how this.

01:01:13Marc:And what did you get?

01:01:15Guest:I got The Sopranos.

01:01:17Marc:Oh, yeah.

01:01:18Marc:I watched you in that.

01:01:19Guest:Yeah.

01:01:19Guest:I'm a baby.

01:01:20Marc:Yeah.

01:01:21Guest:And then I did.

01:01:22Marc:Kind of emaciated?

01:01:23Guest:Yes, emaciated.

01:01:25Marc:Was that required?

01:01:27Marc:Or was that a choice?

01:01:28Guest:It was not a choice.

01:01:29Guest:I was just very emaciated during that time.

01:01:31Marc:Uh-huh.

01:01:31Marc:Yeah.

01:01:32Marc:What a great thing to be on that set.

01:01:34Guest:Yeah, it was really overwhelming.

01:01:36Guest:And Steve Buscemi directed it.

01:01:39Guest:And I was, because I, you know, I watched so many movies of his growing up.

01:01:44Guest:Like we'd seen Living in Oblivion, Tree's Lounge, like my dad, those had all been on the list.

01:01:48Guest:Every Pone Brothers film, obviously.

01:01:50Guest:So I knew, I was so overwhelmed.

01:01:53Marc:But he's such a sweet guy.

01:01:54Guest:The sweetest, the sweetest guy.

01:01:56Marc:Yeah.

01:01:57Marc:So kind.

01:01:57Marc:Really categorically sweet guy.

01:01:59Guest:And then, like, after that, I couldn't get work for, like, a year and a half or something.

01:02:04Marc:What were you doing?

01:02:05Guest:I was a dog walker.

01:02:07Guest:And I worked in a cafe.

01:02:08Guest:And Steve Buscemi would come into the cafe every now and then and be like, how's it going?

01:02:12Guest:And I'd be like, not good.

01:02:14Guest:Like, I don't know.

01:02:15Guest:I can't.

01:02:16Guest:I don't know.

01:02:17Guest:And he was always so sweet and was just like, all right, well, keep going.

01:02:20Guest:And, like, I just kind of did odd jobs for a while.

01:02:23Guest:So, yeah.

01:02:24Marc:And then what happens?

01:02:25Marc:Do you get, like, what starts the run?

01:02:27Marc:Yeah.

01:02:28Guest:I started to get off Broadway plays and they all kind of like came in a big sort of like run of them.

01:02:37Guest:Yeah.

01:02:38Guest:And then and so I was doing like, you know, and that is where I feel like I really like learned a lot.

01:02:45Guest:And so I was doing stuff at New York Theatre Workshop and Lincoln Center and Playwrights Horizons.

01:02:49Marc:That's so rare now to like actually have a foundation in theater.

01:02:54Guest:Yeah.

01:02:55Guest:Yeah.

01:02:55Guest:It was – I'm so blessed.

01:02:57Marc:It makes sense because, like, I don't know that I necessarily would have noticed you.

01:03:03Marc:And, like, for some reason, I just – you know, I'm not even a comic book person.

01:03:08Guest:Yeah.

01:03:08Marc:And I'm watching The Penguin.

01:03:10Guest:Yeah.

01:03:10Marc:Because you're kind of like, you know, let's see what Colin Farrell did with this getup.

01:03:15Marc:Yeah.

01:03:16Marc:And I kind of got locked in.

01:03:18Marc:Yeah.

01:03:18Marc:And then when you come on, I'm like, who the fuck is this person?

01:03:21Yeah.

01:03:21Marc:But that is such a, like, theatrical role.

01:03:25Guest:Yeah, it is.

01:03:25Guest:That whole world is like a theater.

01:03:28Guest:It is.

01:03:29Guest:And I also have been such a massive Batman fan my whole life.

01:03:37Guest:Yeah.

01:03:37Guest:In particular.

01:03:38Guest:No, I like Batman, too.

01:03:39Guest:Because it's so theatrical.

01:03:40Marc:Oh, yeah.

01:03:40Guest:Because no one has a superpower.

01:03:42Marc:It's truly gothic.

01:03:43Guest:It's gothic.

01:03:44Guest:Colin and I were talking about all the time that it felt like an opera.

01:03:46Guest:Yeah, totally.

01:03:47Guest:Everything is so heightened.

01:03:49Guest:And it's like an opera about hurt people.

01:03:51Marc:Well, that's why – what's his name?

01:03:55Marc:Why am I spacing his name?

01:03:56Marc:The Tim Burton Batman's the best.

01:03:58Guest:Oh, my God.

01:03:59Guest:It's so – It's the best.

01:04:00Guest:And it does that line of, like, high camp.

01:04:03Guest:Yeah.

01:04:04Guest:But also, like, you know, you're devastated for them.

01:04:07Guest:Sure.

01:04:07Guest:They're devastating.

01:04:09Marc:Yeah.

01:04:09Marc:And Batman, that character in and of itself is, like, you know, totally a tragic – So tragic.

01:04:14Guest:Operatic hero.

01:04:15Marc:And there's such a fine line between him and his villains.

01:04:17Marc:And it's very hard to beat Danny DeVito's Penguin.

01:04:19Guest:It's a great performance.

01:04:21Marc:It's fucking crazy.

01:04:22Guest:But I'm partial to my guy.

01:04:24Guest:Well, it's a whole different thing.

01:04:25Guest:It's a whole different thing.

01:04:25Marc:Because, you know, you guys are playing it in sort of a reality frame.

01:04:29Guest:Yeah.

01:04:30Marc:Whereas that was not, you know, that was all heightened.

01:04:32Marc:Very heightened.

01:04:33Guest:Yeah.

01:04:34Marc:You know, the decision to make these people people.

01:04:36Marc:Yeah.

01:04:37Marc:Was kind of great.

01:04:38Guest:Yeah.

01:04:39Marc:Because it gets you in.

01:04:40Guest:Yeah.

01:04:41Guest:And then it kind of like, I think our showrunner, Lauren Franck, she's so, so brilliant.

01:04:48Guest:I can't say enough about her.

01:04:49Guest:She really is like, it's like some of the best writing I've ever gotten to work with.

01:04:54Guest:And she, yeah, I think she, the way in which she like humanizes them, then they're allowed to sort of go nuts.

01:05:01Guest:Yeah.

01:05:01Guest:Because you're like, oh, get it.

01:05:03Marc:But it happens within a frame of, you know, there's point of reference for all of it in sort of crime, you know, movies and dramas.

01:05:12Marc:And so with all the backstories and stuff, you know, it subverts the bigness of it.

01:05:19Guest:Yeah.

01:05:19Marc:Yeah.

01:05:19Marc:Yeah, because—and you're allowed to do that, and it makes sense.

01:05:23Marc:Yeah.

01:05:23Marc:But it does feel like it's still rooted in something familiar.

01:05:27Guest:Yes.

01:05:28Guest:Well, because there are so many moments, like, you know—I don't know.

01:05:31Guest:Did you watch the whole thing?

01:05:31Guest:Yeah.

01:05:33Guest:There's like a—when I—not to, like, spoil anything, but when I'm in that gown with the gas mask.

01:05:37Guest:Yeah, yeah, yeah.

01:05:38Guest:Like, that's—no one would do that in life.

01:05:41Guest:Yeah.

01:05:41Guest:And yet, it was like— Sure.

01:05:43Guest:You do believe it in this real thing, even though it's so operatic.

01:05:47Guest:Yeah.

01:05:47Guest:I mean, it was—yeah.

01:05:48Yeah.

01:05:48Marc:But it's like, but any sort of, even a procedural gets ridiculous.

01:05:54Marc:Yes.

01:05:54Marc:But, you know, you've just been trained to kind of like, all right, well, I guess I couldn't have seen this coming.

01:05:59Marc:Yeah, right.

01:06:00Marc:And yeah, it's okay.

01:06:03Guest:Yeah.

01:06:04Guest:Yeah.

01:06:04Guest:I loved it so much.

01:06:05Guest:I love.

01:06:06Marc:No, it's good.

01:06:07Marc:It seems like a role where, you know, you could sort of like engage, you know, all the possibilities of what you do outside of singing.

01:06:14Marc:Yeah.

01:06:14Guest:Yeah, it did.

01:06:15Marc:It felt like I could have sounded that maybe that's I don't think Joker, too, did that.

01:06:21Marc:Well, I wouldn't make the whole thing a musical.

01:06:23Guest:But yeah, I don't I don't.

01:06:23Marc:Yeah, I don't know how Sophia would ever not unless you change the whole thing.

01:06:27Guest:Yeah.

01:06:27Marc:Yeah.

01:06:28Guest:But I did.

01:06:28Guest:I did really feel like I got to use a bunch of different parts.

01:06:33Marc:Yeah.

01:06:34Guest:And that was incredible.

01:06:36Marc:To be all fucked up and crazy and institutionalized.

01:06:38Guest:Yeah.

01:06:39Guest:And then also just, like, turn into a creature.

01:06:41Guest:I mean, I just left it.

01:06:42Marc:Well, yeah, and be able to sort of see that kind of brewing, that moment where, you know, it's an interesting moment.

01:06:49Marc:Even when I'm rewatching Succession, that whatever drives Kendall to make the decision to take over.

01:06:56Marc:Yeah.

01:06:57Marc:But, you know, you're fundamentally kind of evil.

01:07:01Yeah.

01:07:01Guest:Well.

01:07:02Marc:Maybe not.

01:07:03Guest:Depends on – this is what I like about it.

01:07:04Guest:Depends.

01:07:05Marc:Yeah.

01:07:05Guest:Depends on who you talk to.

01:07:06Marc:I mean, not total evil, but ruthless.

01:07:08Marc:Ruthless.

01:07:08Marc:Yes.

01:07:09Marc:But, yeah, I thought it was kind of great.

01:07:13Marc:I really liked the whole thing.

01:07:15Marc:Then I watched –

01:07:17Marc:Palm Springs.

01:07:18Guest:Oh, yeah, I loved that.

01:07:20Marc:It's a weird movie, right?

01:07:21Guest:Yeah, I loved it.

01:07:22Marc:It's a good device.

01:07:24Guest:It's a good device.

01:07:24Guest:I also, like, I got to watch that movie at Sundance right before the world shut down.

01:07:30Guest:And I got to be in this, like, audience of, like, 400 people and no one knew the twist that it's, like, a time loop movie.

01:07:37Guest:Yeah, yeah, yeah.

01:07:37Guest:And it was, I will, like, never forget that movie.

01:07:40Guest:Because the whole audience gasped, like, when they figured out what it was.

01:07:44Marc:And then they're, like, at about a third of the way through, you know, the other part of you waking up is revealed.

01:07:49Marc:Yeah.

01:07:50Marc:And then it becomes kind of the challenge of engaging in life and, you know, owning yourself and all that stuff.

01:07:57Guest:I know.

01:07:57Guest:I always thought it was like a real – I mean, I know it's like a time loop rom-com, but I also was like – it's also like an existential comedy.

01:08:05Guest:Totally.

01:08:05Marc:And then I watched The 30 Rock.

01:08:07Marc:Yeah.

01:08:08Marc:Which was hilarious because I'm a stand-up.

01:08:10Guest:One of my favorites.

01:08:11Marc:You want to hear something funny?

01:08:12Marc:Yeah.

01:08:13Marc:You know, because I just did this show with Silverman, with Sarah.

01:08:16Marc:Yeah.

01:08:17Marc:And I'm like, you know, I told her I was interviewing you.

01:08:19Marc:And she's like, oh, I love her.

01:08:20Marc:And I'm like, yeah.

01:08:22Marc:Oh, my God.

01:08:23Marc:That's so sweet.

01:08:23Marc:I love her, too.

01:08:24Marc:It was like, did you see that 30 Rock?

01:08:27Marc:And she's like, no.

01:08:28Marc:But I heard about it.

01:08:30Marc:Because...

01:08:30Guest:Yes, I have heard about this.

01:08:32Guest:Yes, okay.

01:08:32Marc:And I'm like, what?

01:08:33Marc:And I didn't even put it together.

01:08:35Marc:I'm such an idiot that people thought you were being some version of her.

01:08:38Marc:I didn't see that though.

01:08:39Guest:I didn't either.

01:08:40Guest:You know, I thought it was so, first of all, that was like one of my favorite things I've ever gotten to do.

01:08:46Marc:It was so funny because like, you know, you can do comedy and that's rare in and of itself.

01:08:53Marc:So you really got to kind of do that thing.

01:08:54Guest:And I got to like go for it.

01:08:56Guest:And, you know, I always thought that that episode was such a skewering of what is so commonplace now of like this sexy baby.

01:09:03Guest:Yeah.

01:09:03Guest:I mean, that voice is everywhere.

01:09:05Guest:Well, it's weird.

01:09:06Guest:It's in everything.

01:09:07Marc:Right.

01:09:07Marc:But it's weird because I told Sarah, I said, it's more like Felicia Michaels.

01:09:13Marc:She was a comic that literally did that.

01:09:15Marc:Well, she kind of talks like that anyways.

01:09:17Marc:Yeah.

01:09:17Marc:But it was – she was a comic that –

01:09:20Marc:Yeah, I'm friends with her, but she was one of the few comics that appeared in Playboy, and she used to do that thing, and it was really kind of always sexy and a little dirty.

01:09:28Marc:Like, I didn't even see Sarah at all in it.

01:09:30Guest:No, and I always thought, too, that it just was more about – I mean, that's also what I love about that show is, like, the butt of the joke always ends up being Liz Lemon.

01:09:38Guest:That, like, here she is trying to be, like, the feminist extraordinaire, and because someone comes in in a little crop top talking like a sexy baby, like, she actually also begins to be like, well, you're not funny.

01:09:48Marc:Yeah, right.

01:09:49Guest:And, you know, I am.

01:09:50Marc:Well, no, I didn't know what the twist was going to be because I didn't watch the show.

01:09:54Marc:It's a great twist.

01:09:54Marc:Yeah, it's funny.

01:09:56Guest:Yeah, I loved that job so much.

01:09:57Guest:I also was a really massive 30 Rock fan.

01:10:01Guest:I watched it every week, and I remember pretending to not know.

01:10:06Guest:When I got there, I had a bunch of wig tests or something, and then they took me around being like, and then this is Jack Dongy's office, which I knew.

01:10:15Guest:Yeah, yeah, yeah.

01:10:16Guest:Intimately from watching so many episodes.

01:10:17Guest:And I was like, oh, wow.

01:10:19Guest:Whose office?

01:10:19Guest:Like, I really wanted to downplay that I was like obsessed with it.

01:10:23Marc:Well, you get to do like it's interesting to be an actress who, you know, has the opportunity to play all these different parts and not be pigeonholed in a thing.

01:10:32Guest:Yeah.

01:10:32Marc:Thank you.

01:10:33Marc:Does that does that frustrate you?

01:10:35Marc:No.

01:10:35Guest:Okay, good.

01:10:36Guest:That's why, I mean, you know, I try as best as I can, like, you know, and I don't, I mean, you know, you don't really have as much control.

01:10:43Guest:You have no control, actually.

01:10:45Marc:As an actor.

01:10:45Guest:As an actor.

01:10:46Guest:But I really do try.

01:10:47Marc:Unless you really don't give a fuck and you're willing to.

01:10:50Guest:Yeah, right.

01:10:50Guest:Exactly.

01:10:51Guest:Unless you're Daniel Day-Lewis and you're out there cobbling shoes being like, eh, I'll do it when I want to.

01:10:56Guest:Yeah.

01:10:56Guest:But, like, I've really tried to the best of my ability to do as many different types of things as I can and not get, yeah, pigeonholed.

01:11:10Guest:And you work all the time.

01:11:11Guest:I do.

01:11:12Marc:Thank you.

01:11:12Marc:That's good.

01:11:14Marc:Right?

01:11:14Marc:Yeah, I do.

01:11:17Marc:So when you're on a set with...

01:11:19Marc:Like even in that in that part you had in Wolf of Wall Street.

01:11:22Guest:Yeah.

01:11:23Marc:Like that's got to be like so exciting.

01:11:26Marc:So exciting.

01:11:27Guest:I mean, it's so exciting.

01:11:28Guest:You know, I wish a lot of times like because I am I'm I'm so excited.

01:11:35Guest:And like the like we were talking about earlier, like the miracle of of being able to do this is never lost on me.

01:11:41Guest:But a lot of times the way I begin on a job is like racked with anxiety.

01:11:46Guest:Yeah.

01:11:46Marc:Yeah, of course.

01:11:46Guest:Like, cannot – like, I – there's – like, that's actually a really good example of, like, I look back on that experience and I'm like, wow, I wish you'd just taken it in a little bit more.

01:11:54Guest:Right.

01:11:55Guest:I was so scared.

01:11:56Marc:You get so focused on what you're going to do.

01:11:58Guest:Yes.

01:11:59Guest:And, like, so – And if it's going to be good.

01:12:00Guest:Yeah, if I'm going to be the weak link, if I'm going to disappoint, if I'm going to, like, duff this opportunity.

01:12:05Guest:I'm sitting there, you know, working with artists who I grew up admiring, you know, is an understatement.

01:12:12Guest:Yeah.

01:12:13Guest:I just remember I remember so much fear around that job, which is such a bummer.

01:12:18Guest:Yeah.

01:12:18Guest:It makes sense, too, because I was like, you know, in my 20s and was like, yeah, it's scary.

01:12:22Marc:And it was it was a good role.

01:12:24Marc:It wasn't nothing.

01:12:25Guest:No.

01:12:25Guest:You know, I get in there.

01:12:26Guest:Yeah.

01:12:27Guest:Yeah.

01:12:28Marc:I think I love that movie.

01:12:29Marc:I don't think it's one of those weird movies.

01:12:31Marc:It doesn't get enough.

01:12:32Marc:Like, I think people misunderstood it.

01:12:35Guest:Yeah, right.

01:12:35Guest:You know, I think they thought it was a celebration.

01:12:37Guest:No, it's not.

01:12:39Marc:It's a satire.

01:12:40Guest:It's a satire.

01:12:40Marc:And it's a comedy.

01:12:41Marc:Yeah, totally.

01:12:43Marc:There's just such there's such funny shit in that movie.

01:12:45Marc:Yeah.

01:12:46Marc:Like not just, you know, when he's on ludes and do that whole thing.

01:12:50Marc:But every time, like as the movie went on, they would cut to the room full of brokers.

01:12:55Marc:Yeah.

01:12:55Marc:It got more crazy.

01:12:56Marc:Yeah.

01:12:57Marc:And at some point, there's a guy doing a backflip.

01:12:59Guest:It just gets so crazy.

01:13:01Guest:It's like a bacchanal.

01:13:02Guest:Yeah, yeah.

01:13:03Guest:I thought it was such a statement on, like, the illness of that world.

01:13:07Marc:Yeah, I thought it was.

01:13:08Guest:But, you know, it's similar to, like, you know, I've heard, or maybe I just, like, read something about how American Psycho is, like, really hitting with, like, a younger generation of men.

01:13:18Guest:Yeah, for the wrong reasons.

01:13:19Guest:Yeah, and you're like, what?

01:13:21Marc:Yeah.

01:13:21Guest:How do you watch that and think, like, yeah.

01:13:23Yeah.

01:13:23Marc:Well, now we live in a culture of sort of shameless kind of lawlessness in that it's not about being a good person.

01:13:34Marc:It's about getting away with whatever you can.

01:13:36Guest:I know.

01:13:37Guest:That's such a bummer.

01:13:38Marc:Yeah.

01:13:39Marc:So what happens now?

01:13:40Marc:Are you picked up?

01:13:41Marc:Are you doing another Penguin?

01:13:43Marc:We don't know.

01:13:43Marc:You really don't know yet?

01:13:44Guest:We really don't know.

01:13:45Guest:I know.

01:13:47Marc:That's crazy.

01:13:47Marc:I know.

01:13:48Guest:I know.

01:13:50Guest:We don't know.

01:13:50Marc:Yeah.

01:13:51Marc:But are you doing other stuff?

01:13:53Guest:Yeah, I'm doing.

01:13:54Guest:I just shot a pilot that we're waiting to hear about.

01:14:00Guest:For who?

01:14:01Guest:FX.

01:14:01Marc:Oh, yeah?

01:14:02Marc:What's that?

01:14:04Guest:It's by Will Arbery, who's this brilliant playwright.

01:14:07Guest:I don't know how to describe it.

01:14:09Guest:It's about these seven sisters.

01:14:14Marc:That's a lot.

01:14:16Marc:Yeah.

01:14:17Marc:I tried to watch Made for Love, but you can't even find it anymore.

01:14:20Marc:It's so fucked up.

01:14:21Guest:It's so fucked up.

01:14:22Guest:It's so fucked up.

01:14:25Guest:How does that happen?

01:14:26Guest:That happened because we were a tax write-off.

01:14:30Marc:So you did it for Max.

01:14:32Guest:Yes, did it for Max.

01:14:32Marc:And then it was on Amazon for a minute?

01:14:35Marc:I don't even know if it was.

01:14:37Guest:Maybe it was.

01:14:38Guest:I don't know.

01:14:38Guest:I just know that like they've ripped it off the platform because it's like, yeah, part of that massive tax write-off that was like when they ripped.

01:14:46Guest:Warner Brothers?

01:14:47Guest:Yes.

01:14:47Guest:When they ripped like Westworld off and all this.

01:14:49Guest:And it's such a bummer because, you know, that was three years of our lives.

01:14:53Guest:So many people worked so hard on that.

01:14:54Guest:Yeah.

01:14:56Guest:I also think there are so many parts of that show that have become like eerily prescient.

01:15:01Guest:Yeah.

01:15:01Guest:Because, you know, it was a lot about like the tech world.

01:15:04Guest:You know, I was married to this like very Elon Musk type character.

01:15:08Guest:And it was all about like this sort of, I don't know, people...

01:15:15Guest:in this world of like advanced technology being utterly unable to communicate with each other and like just wanting intimacy so bad and making it worse and worse and worse and worse.

01:15:26Guest:And then I was in, you know, Ray Romano and I played father and daughter and I thought it was this like really special and they were, they're estranged on the show and they really don't get along.

01:15:37Guest:And it was like such an interesting, I just loved that relationship and I love Ray.

01:15:42Yeah.

01:15:42Marc:Yeah, Ray's become a pretty good actor.

01:15:44Marc:He's so good.

01:15:46Marc:Yeah, I mean, I've known Ray before he was, you know, he was a comic.

01:15:51Marc:Yeah.

01:15:51Guest:I adored him and adored working with him.

01:15:54Guest:Yeah, sweet guy.

01:15:55Guest:And, like, we had to do a lot of really, like, you know, like, intimate and sad stuff about, like, a father and daughter who, like, can't.

01:16:05Guest:That's so crazy.

01:16:06Guest:You can't even buy it?

01:16:07Guest:You can't even buy it.

01:16:08Guest:It's just sitting in a vault somewhere.

01:16:10Guest:And I'm also like, it's like on a USB stick somewhere, probably.

01:16:14Guest:Like, just put it up.

01:16:17Guest:And it's such a bummer to think that, you know, I mean, it's also like a lot of what came up during the strikes and everything, that like people's hard work, years of hard work can just be... And it's crazy that with...

01:16:29Marc:With everything being out there, you can generally find it somewhere.

01:16:32Marc:I mean, I did a show for four seasons.

01:16:34Marc:I don't even know where it is.

01:16:36Marc:You know, it showed up because different corporate entities get involved with studios and then you don't know who's got it and who is selling it.

01:16:43Marc:Totally.

01:16:44Marc:But I think it ended up on, you can get it on iTunes.

01:16:47Marc:You can at least buy it.

01:16:48Guest:Yeah, you can't even buy this.

01:16:49Guest:That's crazy.

01:16:50Marc:And there's no recourse for that?

01:16:52Guest:You know, I've really, every time I've like, I've talked to a couple people just like through work at Warner Brothers, but then also like Paramount is who made it.

01:17:03Guest:And so I've also, I know a couple of people at Paramount.

01:17:05Guest:And every now and then I'll be like, hey guys, what's going on with this?

01:17:08Guest:Like, where is it?

01:17:09Guest:And I think there's just, like no one really knows, it feels like.

01:17:13Yeah.

01:17:13Guest:It's fucking nuts.

01:17:14Guest:Which is also really nuts.

01:17:15Guest:I don't know.

01:17:16Guest:And it was such a like, it was such a weird show.

01:17:19Guest:And it was, you know, I don't know.

01:17:21Guest:It's too bad.

01:17:22Guest:I know.

01:17:22Guest:I hope that in some way it gets released.

01:17:25Guest:It finds its place.

01:17:26Guest:Yeah.

01:17:26Guest:Like I would hope that like, I don't know, it ends up on Netflix or it ends up somewhere where it can just be seen for a little while.

01:17:32Guest:Because we worked really hard on it.

01:17:34Guest:And I think it has like a lot of interesting stuff to say.

01:17:37Marc:Is there any sort of momentum to try to get it out there?

01:17:41Marc:Did you talk to your lawyer?

01:17:43Guest:I don't have a lawyer.

01:17:44Marc:Oh.

01:17:46Marc:Okay.

01:17:48Marc:Did you just have an agent?

01:17:49Marc:Yeah.

01:17:50Marc:Okay.

01:17:50Guest:Yeah, just an agent.

01:17:51Marc:It's a weird thing about what they get away with.

01:17:54Guest:Yeah, but it also never really found its fault.

01:17:57Guest:It didn't have a following in the way that a succession does or something.

01:18:01Marc:Yeah, but that seems like a thing that Netflix would at least take a try on.

01:18:04Guest:Totally.

01:18:05Marc:And that they could find another life for it.

01:18:07Guest:Yeah, where you just slap it up there, see what happens.

01:18:08Marc:Because it's one thing if you do something and it doesn't, you know, it doesn't do well at the theaters or whatever.

01:18:12Marc:Eventually someone will pick it up somewhere.

01:18:14Guest:Somewhere.

01:18:15Guest:Yeah.

01:18:15Guest:And it's also, it's like eight episodes.

01:18:17Guest:They're 25 minutes.

01:18:18Guest:Like it's not.

01:18:19Marc:It's only eight episodes?

01:18:20Guest:I think so per season.

01:18:21Marc:Oh, how many seasons?

01:18:22Guest:We did two.

01:18:23Marc:Okay.

01:18:23Guest:Maybe it's 10.

01:18:25Marc:But they're short.

01:18:26Marc:But it did have some following.

01:18:27Guest:Yeah.

01:18:27Guest:Oh, for sure.

01:18:28Guest:People really liked it.

01:18:29Guest:But it never, I mean, like it never became like a, you know.

01:18:33Marc:That hardly happens with anything.

01:18:34Guest:I know.

01:18:34Guest:It hardly happens with anything.

01:18:35Guest:But I mean, I guess I mean that in terms of like, you know, of any type of movement to like.

01:18:42Guest:Yeah, yeah.

01:18:42Marc:Well, that happened with me and Betty in Glow.

01:18:45Guest:Yeah.

01:18:45Guest:I mean, they didn't do that last.

01:18:45Guest:I loved that show.

01:18:46Marc:They didn't do that last season.

01:18:47Marc:I remember.

01:18:48Marc:And people are still kind of like, it's a handful of people, but they're kind of like, how can we not know what happened?

01:18:53Guest:I know.

01:18:54Guest:Yeah.

01:18:54Guest:And it's like left on such an open-ended.

01:18:56Guest:I know.

01:18:56Marc:And there's nothing you can do about it.

01:18:58Guest:Yeah.

01:18:58Guest:I know.

01:18:59Marc:What are you going to do?

01:19:00Guest:Yeah.

01:19:01Guest:I loved that show.

01:19:02Marc:It was a good show.

01:19:03Guest:It was a great show.

01:19:03Marc:It was a lot of fun.

01:19:04Guest:And you were so wonderful on it.

01:19:05Guest:My God.

01:19:06Guest:Oh, that's nice.

01:19:07Guest:I mean, you know, she's one of my favorites.

01:19:09Guest:Yeah.

01:19:10Guest:Yeah.

01:19:10Guest:She's great.

01:19:11Marc:Yeah.

01:19:11Marc:It was so interesting.

01:19:13Marc:Yeah.

01:19:14Marc:To kind of work with her and Allison.

01:19:17Guest:Yeah.

01:19:17Guest:Also so good.

01:19:19Marc:Oh, she's great.

01:19:19Marc:Yeah.

01:19:20Marc:But they're such different actresses in how they approach things.

01:19:24Guest:Oh, okay.

01:19:24Guest:Yeah.

01:19:25Marc:Because like Betty, you know, Allison came up in movie and television, right?

01:19:30Marc:So she came up in L.A.

01:19:32Marc:So there's really a difference.

01:19:33Marc:I never saw it so clearly between like New York theater.

01:19:36Marc:Right.

01:19:36Marc:You know, kind of train people and then L.A., you know, kind of acting business people or how they approach it with with film and TV being the thing always.

01:19:47Marc:Right.

01:19:47Marc:As opposed to, you know, coming up through black box theater and all that.

01:19:51Guest:Which is how Betty and I met, too, was doing a play.

01:19:53Marc:Really?

01:19:54Marc:Yeah.

01:19:54Marc:And Betty's like, you don't know what she's going to do.

01:19:57Guest:Yeah, I know.

01:19:58Yeah.

01:19:58Marc:Every scene, you do a take, and you're like, well, I don't know what's coming.

01:20:03Marc:This one.

01:20:04Marc:Yeah.

01:20:05Guest:We played British schoolgirls together in a play.

01:20:07Guest:Oh, yeah?

01:20:08Guest:So if you can imagine the two of us being like, oh, right.

01:20:11Guest:What are you doing later?

01:20:12Guest:It was a lot of that.

01:20:13Guest:Oh, that's funny.

01:20:15Marc:Yeah, she's great.

01:20:16Guest:She's the best.

01:20:16Marc:Do you guys hang out?

01:20:18Marc:Mm-hmm.

01:20:18Marc:Oh, that's nice.

01:20:19Marc:She's one of my dearest.

01:20:21Marc:I'll tell her I talk to you.

01:20:22Marc:So how are you going to get back on stage?

01:20:24Yeah.

01:20:25Guest:I guess I'm just going to, I don't know, I'm just going to make a stupid joke about hoisting myself up.

01:20:31Guest:I don't know.

01:20:31Marc:Do you get pitched at stuff?

01:20:32Guest:Yeah, for sure.

01:20:33Guest:Definitely.

01:20:35Guest:And there's stuff that I'm, you know.

01:20:38Marc:It's a long commitment for something that I guess part of the, you have to factor into it is that if it's a new play.

01:20:46Guest:Right.

01:20:46Marc:And then you've got to go through the previews.

01:20:48Guest:Yeah.

01:20:48Marc:And then you've got to run.

01:20:49Guest:And you have to, I think, really love it.

01:20:52Guest:Like, I think, or, you know, I don't know.

01:20:57Guest:But I'm really, I really am looking to get back because I just, I miss it.

01:21:01Guest:And whenever I go see a play, I have that feeling of like, oh, I want to get out there.

01:21:06Marc:Yeah, yeah, yeah.

01:21:06Guest:Like a little kid or something.

01:21:07Marc:Yeah, and every night it happens in real time.

01:21:10Marc:It's not waiting around.

01:21:12Guest:And it's been a minute since I've done one, and you do get really rusty.

01:21:17Guest:I mean, you know what it's like to perform live.

01:21:19Marc:When you don't have that muscle for being in front of an audience.

01:21:21Guest:I'm also like, oh, God, it's getting up there.

01:21:24Marc:I haven't done one in like seven years.

01:21:26Marc:Well, that comes back.

01:21:27Marc:It probably comes back easier than piano.

01:21:29Guest:I don't know about that.

01:21:31Guest:I've spent more time on a piano bench.

01:21:33Marc:Yeah.

01:21:34Guest:Yeah.

01:21:34Marc:No, but I mean like being – it's really just about being in front of an audience.

01:21:37Guest:I mean I don't know about memorizing and everything else.

01:21:39Guest:You're not talking about like 10,000 hours of something.

01:21:41Marc:Yeah, you're talking about – No, I just mean that like once you've done –

01:21:44Marc:once you have, you've already put in that 10,000 hours for theater, that even if you get away from it, even with stand-up, what gets not even laxed, it's just to have that constant thing open to a live audience.

01:22:01Marc:Like, if you don't do that for a while, you kind of get it.

01:22:03Marc:But when you get up there, it kind of, you know, because you kind of need it.

01:22:08Guest:I know.

01:22:08Guest:And you feel it.

01:22:09Marc:I know, yeah.

01:22:10Marc:Well, it's good talking to you.

01:22:11Guest:It's so nice to talk to you.

01:22:17Marc:He's great, man.

01:22:18Marc:Awesome.

01:22:20Marc:Again, you can watch The Penguin on Max.

01:22:24Marc:Hang out for a minute, folks.

01:22:28Marc:Hey, as I mentioned before, you can hear Diana Moskovitz read her piece, There Will Never Be Another WTF with Marc Maron with a full Maron subscription.

01:22:37Marc:You can listen to it on last Friday's bonus show with Brendan and Chris.

01:22:41Guest:It almost made me feel like being caught by a detective.

01:22:44Guest:I bet.

01:22:45Guest:That's exactly what I was thinking.

01:22:46Guest:I was thinking of the end of The Usual Suspects.

01:22:50Guest:Yes.

01:22:51Guest:Like she figured it all out.

01:22:54Guest:She laid, she picked up every clue.

01:22:56Guest:Oh, I was totally the snowman.

01:22:59Guest:I was like, I gave you all the clues and yes, she got them all.

01:23:04Guest:How do you feel?

01:23:05Guest:Like, how do you feel being seen?

01:23:07Guest:Like, that's that, that was the, that was the, uh, that was the most, uh, humbling and emotional takeaway from it for me was I was like, man, it wasn't hidden.

01:23:18Guest:Like, I was okay with it being hidden.

01:23:21Guest:Right.

01:23:21Guest:As an inside joke.

01:23:23Guest:Something only for you.

01:23:24Guest:But it was validating to me that if someone was astute enough and was paying attention in the way... And as she was, as devoted to the show as a part of her life as she was, she was able to pick all that stuff up.

01:23:41Guest:And look, you know, the guests are important and the show is about...

01:23:47Guest:humanity and people.

01:23:48Guest:And I loved her way of putting it.

01:23:49Guest:It's like, this is the story of a guy trying to get his shit together.

01:23:53Guest:And that's exactly how I've always seen it.

01:23:55Guest:But like, I always had in the back thought of my head, I was like, well, this thing works because, you know, whatever growth you want to talk about with Mark, one of the things he never really had to grow with,

01:24:07Guest:about was his relationship with me.

01:24:09Guest:Yeah.

01:24:09Guest:He has been an above board, excellent partner from the day we started working together and it never fucking changed.

01:24:17Guest:He is, it is the most consistent thing in the 16 years of this show is the way we have worked together.

01:24:23Guest:And that's not...

01:24:25Guest:a fucking lie.

01:24:26Guest:That is not exaggeration.

01:24:28Guest:That is not like in any way, me trying to look at something in hindsight that has been the way it's been since the start.

01:24:36Guest:And it's just like, I can't believe somebody else got that.

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01:24:52Marc:All right.

01:24:54Thank you.

01:25:32guitar solo

01:25:59guitar solo

01:26:56Thank you.

01:27:41Marc:Boomer lives.

01:28:04Marc:Monkey and LaFonda cat angels everywhere.